The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

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crap.
heavy workload
full brains
droopy eyes
saggy eyebags
tappy nose
sniffy nose
dry lips
tired tired tired
test test test.
this is my life.
Amen.
???!!!
I want it to be
bass bass bass
shopping shopping shopping
sleep sleep sleep
talk talk talk
eat eat eat
exercise exercise exercise
teee-veee teee-veee teee-veee
mooviess mooviesss mooviesss
dance dance dance
tattoo tattoo tattoo
photography photography photography
NO BUMMING ALLOWED
((: *grins

birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TABITHA TEO!!!!!!!
ITS YOUR 17TH!!! you're freaking OLD already but one year NEARER to 18 which is SUPERB!! trallala...
you're W.C for that SMS!! LOVE YOU! and........
we'll meet up soon.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again

RAIN IS COMIN DOWN!! wtf! WRONG!!! its.... JOY IS BLOGGING NOW!!!!!

MY FRIENDS AND I WERE BEING CHEATED AT NEWTON CENTRE FOOD CENTRE!!!!
fuck that shit head assy BOH-ZOH!

Alright, how were we cheated?
So there was like 9 of us in total: Rachel, Alexia, Phanida, Cassie, Sandra, Alex, Joyce, Sarah & I. (+ Chloe who came with her family). We were all there for dinner as we went to support JiMin at ACS(barker). She played the Viola with this cute Korean guy. haha. (opps!) Its some Korean Christian Music thingy that was being held at barker. So she was called to play the opening of the whole thing. So we ALL went to go support!! MAN! I tell you JI MIN IS FREAKING FREAKING GOOD!!!!! THE WAY SHE PLAYS!!! WOAH!! and WHAT SHE WORE SEXXXXYYY haha. anyway TO JI MIN: you played well and you look super super PRETTY on stage and you sounded FANTASTIC!!!! I give you 10 stars out of 5. (opps!*-) haha. love!
(pics will be uploaded later)
the girls were like cam-whoring all the way...
We left straight after she played and we ALL headed down to Newton Circle's Food Centre to MAKAN!! By that time we were all like STARVING !!! So we ORDERED AND ORDERED AND ORDERED like nobody's business! We had like HOKKIEN MEE, CHAR KWAY TEOW, OH LUAH(Oyster omelette), STINGRAY(cheat!), SATAY and carrot cake and beef noodles and desserts, etc..... SEEE!! THIS IS HOW MUCH 9 GIRLS CAN EAT!!!! and I'm the FATTEST!(ARGHH!!!! ANOREXIC IS MY GOAL!)
story of the stingray and the cheating! fucking gold/silver/blonde hair guy!
WARNING!!: when you eat at newton and want to eat seafood, patronise all the other stalls but not the one with the many awards one facing the car park, next to the famous minced pork noodles!!!! and the guy has a RECOGNISABLE hair! (;
WHY IS THIS SO?
-cause they think we are super easy peasy to cheat! lol. by bring 2 plates of Stingray looking as if they were from 2 different stalls and one charging 50% more than the actual price.
WHY ARE YOU'LL SO STUPID?
-we are not its just that we lack good communication skills. By not informing each other, we thought that someone else ordered therefore we thought that we called extra! :(
sighh... later we were smart enough to go look around and spot them actually "interested" in rah or rach. ASS HOLEs !! They can't just get a life!!!!

pictures will be uploaded soon...
LOVE <3

today. is an inequality

BOTH MY PHONES ARE SCREWED!!!! (no more spare phones)
okay BOTH of them! SHIT. The Sony's screen moves continuously from right to left like a train. and the Nokia can't send off messages. fuck. Blame it all on my butter fingers;when my phone rolled down the steps.

arghhh..
I'm so bored. Left serene early today as mom called and asked if I want to go for dinner with them at Min Chiang. I was like anything. So she said that she'll pick me up. At that point of time, it was only 3+ and she came already with dad at about 4:15pm. Bathed and I'm thinking in my mind on what I should wear later(so gay!-shuttup). I'm going to miss my 7 O' clock show and I'm going to put on weight! freak!

School was somehow fun today as we started off with P.E in the morning, our first period. During P.E, we played softball. I was like screaming my lungs out! RUN RUN RUN! cause some people are just so blur that they don't know that they're suppose to run. haha. I was super enthu. during P.E when normally I'll be gaying out. This time its like the 'FUNest', okay the most fun P.E of my whole entire life in St.Margs!!!!!!! We played like little kids, that we forgot the time, even Ms. Kaur. Until Sidd and Fariza told her and she started panicking saying, OMG! OMG! OMG! while waiting for us to queue, pacing back and forth. haha. She's super FUNNY. Then she ran back to class with us and apologised to Mr. Chan for being 15 minutes late. P.E was sure fun today. I'm feeling the muscle pull n my thighs now.

photos

yo momma show me what you got. The 70's back in the '07.
Trying to look young when she's turning into a SENIOR CITIZEN!


I learnt something new from her that day. Some dot dot dot shit!
and I started going all CRAZY laughing from it and doing other stuffs.
Mind my Winter outfit, it was really COLD and chilly a SUPERDOGS!
(my NEW hat((:)

BAY's (oh so great) PENCIL!!
wtf.

wow! its nice to see a st.margs

Alright. Is my school GOOD/BAD? (in reputation)
Today, I met 2 people that said this almost exact same words, 'wow! its nice to see a St.Margaret girl.'

One was a stranger, an EX-STUDENT, that studied in St.Margs 35 YEARS AGO!!!! (wth!) LOL. She just saw me at the bus stop and then started talking to me, thank God that my mp3 wasn't blast or else I would not have heard her talk to me. I took out my ear piece and she's like 'Sorry I didn't know that you're listening to the radio.' and then she said: 'ohh sorry, carry on..' So I didn't bother and continued listening. Then she started talking again. Telling me that I should listen to BBC radio, and its good for me and my english and its not boring. She also said that if I'm listening to a new reporting station, it'll bore me out. (she makes no sense!-contradicting) Then what class I'm from and stuff. Then she said, like don't worry and stuff just get 20 points and below and Yishun JC will take me. -_-

Nevermind. Soon my bus came, I scooted off. lols.

163. I saw Pricilla(sp?-sorry), I think thats her name. This CF girl. haha. And she asked if I'm still in CF haha. So when I saw her she went like, 'OH MY its nice to see a Polka Dot in the bus.' I was like haha. Then we started a conversation. She's in SAJC now for her first three months and not many St.Margs is in SAJC. So.. bla bla blah.

Bused home, walked home. Parents aren't at home as they went out to have dinner with Aunty Sylvia and Uncle Ron-Bon. Cause they're leaving soon, I think, back to England.
I didn't take dinner as of the fattening stuffs I ate today. Like kuay teow with gyoza, fillet O fish without tar tar sauce and extra cheese and white chocolate Toberlone.
WITH ALL THESE FATTENING FOOD, HOW CAN I TURN ANOREXIC????

lets reply the LONG taggs -their rants about PARENTS lols(sth that everybody wants to talk about)

VAN!!!
yep. no probbys thanks anwy. I know PARENTS are such a nuisance, but what would we do without them. ARGHH... as for the fat cow! I dont give a fuck already la. The most dont attend her fuck shit lousy expensive tution la!!!
LOVE!!

ERIKA!!!
heyy. yepss. it seems that everybody is sensitive to the word, PARENTS! haha and all the "kids" are standing up for themselves!!! (I LIKE!!!) haha. chill girl. LOVE what happened??? what dilemma?? talk to you in school???

TAB!!!
YES! Maybe this is the time that ALL parents get all so worked up period. haha. I hope this doesnt happen every month. WAIT its almost everyday. I know its just the generation thingy! Different wavelength and we just can't "click" with them!
LOVE!!!

i break porcelain and i break benjamin as well. (this has nth to do with any benji's!just a title)

what a fucked up day.
Today is just not the day for me. It may have started off well in school and then after school. But it sure it isn't when I got home. School life isn't my life, I think that whatever I do in school is just a facade. I don't believe that I'm alive in school, I'll just live life day by day in school be a normal student and obey all the fucking stoopit rules.


Went to JM's house today, dad picked me up(oh so nice) and sent Sarah home as well. When I got home I wanted to go to the gym but something happened to my shitfuck computer and it got jammed and stuck and whatever shit. It made me procrastinate today! DARN! I have given up on tha fucked up shitface computer. I'll just deal with dad's lappy till it dies.



Home, I am, it was time to eat dinner when I came back. So I ate downstairs in the living room so as I can watch my 7 O' clock show. The shit chair SUCK! The table with the food and bla after I'm done is on the table. So I wanted to squat on the chair, don't know what God knows the leg rest of the chair just POPed OUT! hitting the table front, causing it to fall and the BREAKABLE bowl, spoon and saucer BROKE. fucked up DAD yelled at me! Not as if I said fuck in front of him when everything collapse. I did no shit wrong! The fucking OLD chair is just faulty. HE JUST HAD TO YELL AND BLAME ME FOR IT. He helped me clean it though, with a screwed up look and blabbering, ya-dah, ya-dah...


IF THIS IS SO THEN DON'T HELP ME! JUST fucking LEAVE ME ALONE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS I MADE! I mumbled, 'then don't help me la' which I think he heard, but ignored. I decided not to be rude so I turned around and said fuck discreetly to the FLOOR! and the steps and the chair.
Got a cloth, wet it and cleaned it with all the broken pieces of glass on the floor. I wish it would cut me and I will bleed.


When mom knew about it, she yelled at me too saying why am I like this and like that, PLEASE I'm FREAKING 17 !!! Don't I get a mind of my own?(whats done is already done) When I told her that I failed my first Chinese test, it got worse. WHY BLAME ME WHEN WE DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO AFFORD TUITION. fuck. I know I may have all the freedom in the world when it comes to going out and doing what so ever outside. But please have a thought for me on the inside, I still do need someone to care about me and spare a thought for me. I would let go the freedom I have right now for a simple loving family life or even for a day of peace and quietness with no yellings. With the understanding that I'm NOT that young baby girl anymore, I've grown up! (this just brings me to tears)
;give me wings so I can fly so high.

Later on, Towey called and kept on saying that she's upset and unhappy with the timings that we have and we've been telling her that we'll be going and we kept postponing the tuition dates. She even said that she's kept the slot for us for a LONG time and have missed a month of salary from us. She's so proud by even saying that if we don't want to come its okay, and she has many other people that wants the slot we're having. FUCK YOU, FAT BITCH! If this is so, then I'll show you that I can do it on my own when you say I can't!

I'm so fucking pissed with everybody right now.
;OMG I wish I am like her as skinny as a bamboo pole.
ANOREXIA, the path I'm heading towards.

-I'll be anorexic;own tattoos and piercings all over me till my ascending day.

what is my future going to be like?

RIGHT!
So I went for Ngee Ann Polytechnic Open House today to check out the courses that is available and what course I'm going to take in the coming future. Time pass real fast and sooner or later we still got to make this decision and decide! Whether a poly or a JC and its said that by next year the MOE will abolish the first three months thingy. SWEET! So I can't get a taste of J.C life with OGs and orientation fun.

Anyway, back to NP. The campus is SO SO SO Big that I think I can get lost in there and the school is SUPER FILLED with people! You feel like a super BIG molecule sqeezing through many TINY molecules! (lols) As said, there were many many MANY people so I saw many people as well. Like, Debra from SMSS(chinese dance), SarahCEE&friend, Jeric, Ben, Zach, Lloyd, Daniel Ang....ex.st marggiess and blah. I guess thats all.

It was quite boring, in fact. Left after a while when Deanna and Joanne stayed on. Went to meet Van, Jia Man and Jia Zhen. SHopped a little saw MANY MANY stuffies that I want to buy. Took a long time and lost track of time to meet Bay.(opps!) Then met Bay. Then went for Cell today. Yeeppiees! (I'm beginning to find the passion and faith I once lost in God.) I'm going back to the GUY that carried the cross and died for my sins! ((;

rightyy. I'm scooting, house chores 'bootcamp' tomorrow morn. then SHOPPING!
LOVE!

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERIC & KELVIN!!!!!!! you're one year OLDER!! whee~~

-maybe all those one word/single replies and NO replies are just signs that you're ignoring me.

my day was indescribable. (literally-in a way that its not good or bad.) Many funny things happened in school today.

Like during physics, Mr. Chua was telling us during his time when they had track and field trainings they will run through this "forest" place near his school. (We're learning sounds now) Then he said that it takes a longer time for sound to travel through air than to travel in don't know where(can't rem). So he being the senior, training his juniors, his junior were all slowing down and he was WAY WAY ahead. So he shouted through the trees and after a few seconds, he realised that all his juniors were turning around and looking around them, looking as if he's really near them, behind them, and they got scared so they quicken up their pace. lols.
(I think its funny if you imagine you hear someone calling you but that person is not near you and you turn your head left and right when you're all alone, and nobody's beside you)

And during Social Studies lesson as well. Mr Lee S.B was unwell so he didn't come to school today. Mrs. Lo relieved[sp?] the first period and Ms. Monica Wang relieved the second. haha. So it was the last period of the day and I believe everybody is tired so is the teachers. HAHA. Ms. Wang was sitting right in front of the class at the teacher's table, she had nothing to do and I think she felt bored she took out some papers to mark. While marking, suddenly her eyes shut, and her head nods up and down. Then she sits up straight again and then fall back to sleep. It sure was a hilarious picture and Yoges laughed so loud that she woke up. I even ate in front of her!(when she was sleeping) Then when she realised that the class was laughing at her, she crapped up with an excuse saying like, aren't you girls like that as well, when you'll feelo extremely tired and blah blah blah.

Had to stay back in school to do chinese. I think I failed the recent chinese test, THANK GOD she didn't ask me to drop to CLB. I pray that I pass, a borderline pass will do.

Changed my notebook today at TOPSHOP.

I'm tired.scooting off now. ciao y;ll.
love!

Butterfly Kisses.

"Daddy of all the things I've done wrong there must me something I done right."
I love you daddy.
I already past sixteen and I don't know when I'll change my name.
I know then you'll still LOVE me after all I've done throughout the years.
I would want you to walk down the aisle with me, knowing that I'm marrying the right man.
I love you daddy, and I'll always be your little girl.


-sounds as if I'm getting married. But the song I was hearing just move me into tears. And thoughts of me leaving daddy and mommy, getting married... I don't want that to happen.

FAT FAT FATS!

We went to have Sakae Sushi A-La-Carte Buffet today. It was SUPER DUPER YUM! Jia Man, Jia Zhen, Sarah, Bay, Van, Deanna and I. We sure ate a "COW"! It was definitely worth it for us. Stacks and stacks of plates till we can't see the person sitting opposite us. It sure was FUN eating with the girls, joking, laughing and growing FAT altogether.
(OPPS! FAT is like a sensitive word to us right now.-anorexia is 'da thang!')
what happened to JJAVSS'd?

After we left Wheelock, I met auntie(coolness). Jia Man and Jia Zhen then went to study while the rest of us were freaking lazy, after the meal. So when we were deciding this Vietnam Lady came up to us and told us that she was from Vietnam and saying she wants to go to Joo Chiat Road and wants to take bus 16. So as Bessa is the one that takes 16 EVERYDAY! and she knows where the Bus Stop is! And its at Lucky Plaza, which is the nearest to Wheelock. As we brought her there, Bay was talking to her and she was super HILARIOUS and CUTE! We took the underpass at Taka to Lucky Plaza. When the lady saw the sign, "WELCOME TO NGEE ANN CITY" she decided that she should take a picture with it so Bay helped her take a picture. Then she asked us to go stand there so she can get a picture of us, so she took a picture for us. Being super cute, she thanked us(in a funny weird way), shook our hands and we went our separate ways.

Walked to Paragon as Darll' wants to go collect her un-mendable bag at Ben Sherman. The bag is so lousy. Even my Lonsdale bag is better. My Lonsdale bag even gave me a warning saying that the bag is for gym stuff only and not textbooks and the maximum weight is 5kg. My books are like WEIGHTS and my bag's strap is still intact. Whereas for Darll's bag the handle is about to break and Ben Sherman can't do anything about it other than to let her exchange to another design(her design is out of stock-but its a present). So they just gave her a FREE T-Shirt that's ubber U.G.L.Y!

I want to go to Pull and Bear to see-see. Ended up looking for a notebook for myself to use it as a dairy. Went to Takashimaya, saw something I like but there wasn't the size that I want. Went to Bookbinders and they don't have lined notebooks. Art Friend is hopeless. Kinokuniya has nice petite ones but they're so expensive and I'm afraid that after I buy it I see something nicer. So I decided to go to Topshop, Paper People. Many nice choices although more ex. than those at Kinokuniya but these are like nicer and cooler. Darll' and I ended up buying one for ourselves. I took quite a long time to decide. Finally I chose one and I opened it to see if there's lines, there was so I picked those that look cleaner and newer. When I came home, I opened it and realised that the lines were GONE! All BLANK PAGES, OMfG. So I guess I'll be going back to change it and I hope they will allow me to do so. )):

Home is where I am now.
(:

TAG REPLIES !!!

haha I know. arghh so pissyfying. No worries about home K? I'll bee right there!! CHILL LOVE!
\\: VAN

I love you back (ref.g to testi) GIRL! don't worry about your school work okay?? everything is going to be fine. When there's a way there's a will. So its going to be a SMOOTH journey in this year!!!!! I can't really communicate with some of my classmates as well but girl you got to know that they're eventually your classmates/team mates. Take Care k? Will always be there LOVE
//: TAB

is that it?

I guess I know what they really need. Trust and A Family called home.
nahhh.. I really don't know.

-I wish I knew.

ratings have dropped.

NOBODY IS VISITING MY BLOG!!!!!! )))):
wth. actually I don't really care. All I care is that he visits my blog.(which I don't know)

EMOTIONS OF A PMS-y MOOD.
Its really proven that when girls PMS they can'r all have it at the same time as their friends. Cause when they have it all at the SAME time. Their moods collides, which sucks. I always hate it when my girlfriends and I all PMS at the same particular moment. It just happened last week. Everybody was just screaming at each other on the top of our voices and hitting into each other's "EGO'' without knowing we're hurting someone.

Girls.. WHY can't they live without blood coming out of their chee-byess every single month that lasts for at least a week. Not only does the blood come out, it gives us stomach cramps as well. ITS SO UNFAIR. So tell me whats fair towards the females?

fish sticks!

TAG REPLYS :///

christian : wow! Thank You so much. Hope you get the girl. HAHA. Its COOL you found my blog(:


ERIKA ! ! ! ! : Don't worry. You know we're in the same exact situation that the guys are DIFFERENT and they are KILLING us inside. WE ARE STRONG! We can withhold and make sure they KNOW how much we care and love them!!! YOU KNOW I'LL BE BY YOU!!!! love.

Have you ever liked me before? -a question that most girls want to know.

A whole day at home with nothing done. Laziness got over me and I've got a CHINESE TEST tomorrow. How smart! I didn't even do my accounts when its on the first period tomorrow. I did not completemy english summary as well. WELL DONE for hardworking.

So... what did I do when I'm at home the whole entire day? Woke up in the afternoon laze around and told myself that I will do my work at 3. But when it was nearing 3, I decided to turn on the televison. And I watched it till 5 plus with my books in front of me. (goood) When all the shows are done. I flipped open the book, looked at it, read it and turn my attention back to that BIG SQUARE THING (the TV!). Until 6+ went downstairs to see whats cooking. Aunty was making Abalone Rice! ! !(drooolss) So I can't wait for dinner. Sat the dining hall, read the papers as I wait. Ate dinner and went back up to watch The Cheetah Girls (oh my embarrassing) on The Disney Channel.

Eventually nothing was completed and here I am, blogging.

many things unsaid

should I leave them unsaid?
Did I leave those things unsaid or is it you?

I WISH SOMEBODY CAN TELL ME!!!!!

Shimada and I have been thinking and talking about it the whole entire day, on why can't we understand these kind of guys. Not only that. Why do we still like them so much after what they have done to us.

I dreamt about you;I really did

I dreamt that you quit smoking for no bloody reason.
I had a feeling it was me.
But I was unsure.
I wish God would let me continue in this dream to find out the true reason.
Your friend made friends with my friend.
We were in two places first in Clarke Quay and second we're in Velocity, Novena Sq.
Its rather freaky that I can remember the places and the faces.
I felt proud of you that you did it.

I think the thought of quiting have been in your mind ever since that day when we MSNed.
Your personal messages are always so random, unclear and confusing.
I now see that you're a random person.
When I read them I will always wonder and think what does that mean.
I have been thinking why?
or, How?
Why guys are not straight forward/How come guys are not direct??
If I confronted you would you answer me?
If you don't, when we meet its going to be awkward. (will we ever)

I regretted.
Regret that I tried, out of curiosity.
The saying goes, "Curiosity Kills The Cat".
Now it'll go, "Curiosity Killed Joy".
What if you do quit and decided to tell me everything you've went through and start afresh.
And during that period of time, I ciggy.
Will you still love me? As I didn't change and you did.
I'm sorry. ( why am I apologising?)

The Diet Scheme? wtf.

SUSHI V.S VEGETABLES

Oh man! I'm eating terriblely hundreds and tons of food. Carbohydrates, Fats (saturated and unsaturated) and other unwanted shits are all entering into my body;my freaking all so fat body. I'm suppose to be on a Vegetarian Diet and not a Sushi Diet! Rah and I went to Sakae Sushi to have the 'all-you-can-eat buffet' yum yum! I tell you. We maybe girls but we sure DO eat A LOT! It was rather worth it for us, I guess.

Actually we were suppose to go to Hanabi(sp?) at King's Arcade which is a little more expensive with a wider range of food. Due to the weather we decided to go to Sakae as Rah hasn't tried it yet and I have only tried it once. To prepare and 'charge' up for the buffet, I only ate breakfast early in the morning cause mom said that its a must, like a key to a car, this the key to start my brains working. Mom is so NONSENSE, but I love her. I didn't eat anything in school except an apple and I drank water. Oh do a bit of vege and a fishball count as little? I LOVE WATER! H2O is GOOD! Especially Isetan, iwater haha. I guess I'll survive everyday with just water and a day of proper meal. ((:

-i need the ciggs

DO COWS NEED TO WEAR BRA?

Why not chickens too then we'll have smoother and tastier breast meat.
It was debate during my English lesson today, "If cows should wear bra". The debate was rather hilarious as of what girls can say and imagine. It was an enjoyable lesson (during the debate only) the rest of the lesson was BORR-RINGG I slept. The Cheshire cat was not amusing at all. I wish I didn't score an 'A' in N's (O's would be better), then I wouldn't be in her class.

School is giving the students A LOT of homework! And Chinese have been really a difficult and stressful subject to me. Doing Chinese assignments everyday, and a Chinese test on Monday. This kind of a timetable will KILL me one fine day.


-where are the cigs

I'll be listening! ! !

Dear friend,
I love you first of all. Know that I'll be there listening always. Till I become like the old man, there in the picture. When I grow bald with just a patch of grey hair left, till I'm so OLD that I look like a man and even when my sense of hearing decides to fail me. I will just be sitting there and let you blabber to me. I know I'm always looking else where when you talk to me for long and I look distracted with other things and you think that I'm bored listening to you, I am actually still listening and I know what you're saying to me. I CAN MULTI-TASK. Trust me, I seriously can. You are always there for me when I needed you to listen to me. You'll just be there no matter what and listen to me yah-da-ing, giving me advice, comfort me and to think the positive way. Although I am not like that, I don't have the fast thinking of an advice or at least something to distract you from thinking talent. But I'll still be there listening to you, I may suck at advices with the emotions and consoling.(you know that) I am trying, so at times I may think and keep silent after you're done talking. Please note that I'm actually thinking of what to say to you and I'm not distracted with anything else. Don't think so much already thats what I can say. You don't want to let me see myself in you. And you definitely don't want to see me in yourself right. You know how I am. The emo-shit.
You take care, love you.
((: I'm getting cheesy, wtf..

people think for me in other words decide for me

I want to get a Vintage Polaroid, I saw a beauty at FarEast Plaza. Err.. its NOT the one in the picture, appreciate the beauty. So I have been deciding if I should get it.

I have thought.. if.. :

• the vintage is worth it
• the film would be difficult to buy
• its too bulky to bring out
• its too fragile/vulnerable
• I should buy it
• somewhere else sells cheaper
• its easy to be taken care of
• I will have time to use it

This are like my concerns. Bay say that I shouldn't buy it cause its not worth it BUT for value purpose, maybe and that they are not producing it anymore so its somehow 'limited'. As for the film, I've asked the shop owner and she said that she doesnt have any trouble finding the film for her vintage as the shops downstairs sells it. The thing that I'm afraid of is that what if the stock of the film runs out as well, stop in distribution. If that happens, the cam will be redundant, and I can place it in the cupboard of my home to stare at(-nice!). Oh I will be able to use it as a model too. Fabulous!

Okay so people you'll MUST decide for me, its an important decision as its not cheap.
Thank You! You people are so appreciated.

back to being, the busy bee

This time it includes stress. It sucks, literally. After being back to school for the third day, you have a BIG pile of homework to complete, uncomplete holiday homework and even stayback classes. This year is the final year, the year you finally get to leave that school and stretch out your hidden wings and FLY HIGH. But we'll have to pass an obstacle, O LEVELS.

Currently, I'm taking a break. A break from doing all the homework. I hate it when they give you holiday homework. Last year they gave us an assignment of 100expression from 3 books, 5 chinese writings(newspapaper cutting, "diary", letter writting(both formal and informal) and a 'bao zhang bao dao'), 2 sets of chinese cloze passage and comprehension, accounts, chemistry and physics. So smart aleck JOY was so happy having fun and enjoying herself during the holidays(somehow) she forgot that she has homework to complete. The best thing is that she didn't even know where she place her homework.
And when you go back to school and having your first lessons, meeting your 'new' teacher(some) then they take their time introducing themselves. After that they decide to start lesson the next tme they see you. And those teachers that know your class like their back of their hand, starts lesson, immediately. Then when lessons start homework begin as well. Within this three days we have already accumulated Maths, Accounts and Social Studies homework. This is the beginning of my Secondary 5 life.

I was doing my work(as said earlier I'm taking a break now) I completed Accounts and some of English. And when I decide to do chinese, I realise that I do not have chinese writing paper. So I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe write it on english foolscap, whatsoever.

Ogay, enough of my break! Thou shall go back in doing homework.
blog once again when I have the mood and have time.
love y'll ciao for now.

school, The First Day in 2007.

.honesty is the best policy.
I hate my class. Not holding any position in class is the best policy. But my world of classmates just wants me to have at least a title. Being sabotage in the votes of the class commitee, killed me. I know I'm not going to be either The Monitor or The freaking assistant, as competition was strong. My face was disgruntled, when I heard my name, I knew that nobody is going to vote for me. The expression on my face gave a bad impression upon my teachers.

She, Mrs. Seet(form tutor), have been staring at me (the whole entire time) when Mr. Chan(form teacher, again) was calling for volunteers for the other position in the class commitee. Thinking that I will volunteer myself in. I stared back at her as the other clique "ruled" the "election" and smirked. Sitting cross legged trying not to think that she's looking in my direction, I enjoyed the greenery outside. haha.

When it was the last position to be called, they(classmates) said that I should have at least something this year as its our last year and it will look good in our 1 page long testimonial, in the future. They yelled my name, once again. Unwillingly, I nodded my head to be the representative of Social Studies, my most hated subject, with teacher Mr. Lee S.B.

Now, as seniors of the school, the oldest and I'm turing 17 this year. I FEEL FUCKING super OLD! Okay, I must have a good impression upon myself so I should not curse or swear. haha. I hope this new year will be good for me.

SHOUT OUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DEARSSSSSS

I've been wanting to do this. New year new shout outs to the dearssss! ! !

VAN! :

oh my bestie. There are many things I want to tell you. I want to tell you that although I make fun of you, laugh at you all the time making you feel embarrassed and all, when best friends don't do that. I'm an extraordinary bestie. haha. But I want to say that, I THANK YOU for taking in all my NONSENSE. Girl don't you worry about your relationships. I'll respect your decisions always, no matter who you choose. But girl you'll have to know who to choose wisely and if that guy is wise and will last with you till eternity. And I'll be there for you no matter what, rain or shine.. or what so ever. Even when you need me at 3, 4 or 5 in the morning I'll be there for you. When I can't be there in person, I'm sorry, but i'll try. My BEST FRIEND FOREVER! I LOVE YOU! start the new year right.
hearts*

BAY! :

bay bay. We have been doing all our crap together THE WHOLE ENTIRE YEAR, 2006! and we will start it right this year ok? Although we've been smashed on the new year itself, 01/01/2007. There's 363 more other days to change what we are. We're going to STOP ciggys and booze. (are we?, except exams haha) Dear I know you will think that its gay when I say I LOVE YOU but I really do. You know I mean it. And DO NOT WORRY! when you're all drunk and wasted, I'll be next you a little sober, still knowing whats happening around the world, to take care of you. I THANK YOU for taking in all my nonsense and crapping around with me in 2006 and I'm sorry that I always scare you, I'm not scary and weird, seriously! You know I won't get pissed with you for long, vice versa. haha. We're going to score well in Os this year and your dirty little gay secrets are always with me!

hearts*

RAH! :

rah rah!!! I MISS YOU all the time. You're like my coffee, starbucks chit chat tai tai pal, partner and bestie as well. And, I always love going to your place to do gay stuff and talk to you. I love talking to you. Your place is just the fun, cause you're always grounded. Don't worry, when you're in need I'll be the Wonder Woman that RUNS to your place to be your talking block. In this NEW YEAR! Everything is going to be more adventourous for us and there's going to be more funky crasy stuff for us to check out. Though lesser partying, we're going to have more fun with the girls. Your momma is also going to open up on letting you independent this NEW YEAR. As for J****, don't worry he's going to alright and fine in your life. Don't be soft and be straight forward. As for D**, no worries everything is going to chill down and back to normal. I LOVE YOU! and you take care I'll be there okay? love HAPPY NEW YEAR!

hearts*

chloeee.. thanks for all the support with that spammer that does not think she's a spam. I love you.HAPPY NEW YEAR take care. more hangging out..

JiMin.. I love you too. HAPPY NEW YEAR! once my futt always my futt. Its the new year start it right and we're going to hang out more right?

Sandra.. always eeeeeee-ritating me. haha but no worries, I still love you the way you are. Although you're SO unreasonable but still thinks you are right. You know I get angry with you cause you always don't listen. Don't be so stubborn all the time, change for the better. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

Tabbyy.. I LOVE YOU and we'll be friends forever.

E. SHIMADA.. You'll do okay in the new year and you'll rock the world. I love you.

Deanna.. I LOVE you DARLL'! We're going to start the year right right? ROCK our O's.

oh myyy the list goes on... there are many more I want to shout out too.

If I've missed you, and you wnat to know what I want to say, tag me, don't be shy or feel shit .

LOVE

ATTENTION://

PEOPLE PLEASE NOT CARE ABOUT THAT TRICIA NO MORE.
SHE DON'T EVER REALISE THAT SHE SUCK WHEN SHE CALLS OTHERS NAME, LOSER.
TRICIA! YOU DON'T LIKE ME JUST HATE ME ALONE.
STOP CALLING MY FRIENDS NAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Lets all KICK-START the new year, that's what I've been telling almost everybody to start the new year right and all. By not getting smashed and wasted during the new year and forgetting all undeserving memories. But guess what? I don't act what I preach. SUCKer!-this is how you spell j-o-y

I got smashed in the New Year and I'm too positive, thinking that everything is going to be alright when I started my own disaster upon my emotions. I'm okay, I'm alright, I guess.
My first blog post will just have to be about him. God, please tell me what am I doing with myself. I feel stooopit talking to him.

Why can't I talk to him like how I talk to the other guys? He's just an ordinary friend. I can be myself in front of the others but why can't I just be myself in front of him. I always feel speechless in front of him. What is it that makes him different, I see him normally, he got 2 eyes, one nose, one mouth and two ears, just like any other. Inside its different.


XOXO,
joy 2007

I'll let you understand, musique.

I don't know why I bother talking to you. I feel dumb whenever I talk to you cause. I don't know in fact. I know this answer does not help and it does not solve my ownself as well. Maybe its cause I still have feelings for you and I have not let go when I have told myself I did.
Why does our conversation have to be like this all the time? (my heart hurts, literally) What happened to all the hee hee, hahas and lols. And all the mundane stuff we talk about, from going to one place, doing this and that, telling each other crap. I FEEL LIKE A FOOL FOR YOU. I hate it when you're suddenly sweet. Like just now when I say I'm stooopit and I ask stooopit question, you say that I'm one of the smartest girl you probably ever know. I HATE YOU for that. When you suddenly tell me that I'm cute or suddenly call me babe or sweet or whatsoever. I HATE YOU for that. When will I ever learn that you will never ever like me again? (idontknow if you have ever)This really sucks for me, I'm crying and tearing as well as praying that this will stop soon. It started all over again. Once, tears stopped cause it ran out, I guess now its back in stock again. This time its worse, I don't know why, my heart aches, literally.
WHAT A NEW YEAR.
I guess its bad thinking to turn away from cigs, back I'll run to them. ..