Labour Day

I know you're not asleep
I can feel you moving over there
You've been playing with the seam
In your worn out underwear

My lips are raw as hell
From biting on them just to stay awake
It's not like I'm gonna need them
You won't be around
To see them bleed and break

All...all that I do
Comes back to you
So I'll just think about you til there's nothing new in my head
All...all I can do
Is try not to screw this up again
And just be friends
I'd rather be dead

I drove out of East Atlanta
With a headache the size of my car
I called to say that I was okay
Cause i know how you are

I'm like a movie without an ending
You know I've got nowhere to go
And it makes me wanna throw up
To see you wanna give up
More than you'll ever know

Everything is supposed to have a happy ending
But the record keeps spinning and the needle keeps bending
Like the road I'm driving to the bridge that has no end
I wanna take back everything that I've broken
But the bridges behind me are burning and smoking
I guess this is the end

BLOGiO a CHORiORE!!

I haven't been blogging since God knows when!! I just don't find a trill in blogging right now. I've gotten out of this blogO thingyy.. teehahaha... BLOGGING a.k.a online diarying a.k.a e-diary... whatever it is I don't think I like it now and nobody is viewing this darn thing now! Tell me who views my blog?? The statcounter is like not JUMPING!! (imagine if it can!!) lols. nobody lovess me...):): NOBODY views!!, so why blog? and... btw my EGLANND is BERRY PWODERFUL!!!
http://joymemyselfni.blogspot.com - what the hell is this?
ARGHH!!! NO MORE BLOGGING FOR JOY!
NO MORE emo posts like when I see many 'comments' by different girls and I think he's gotten another "victim" like now he has something on his MSN nick! ARGHH....... NO MORE funny moments like today when my grandmother was super cute while playing mj. SHE KEPT ON SAYING THAT THE TILES ARE BLUR! BUT! SHE WINS EVERY ROUND! hahaha....... NO MORE girls day out like when the girls and I went to The Night Safari. Walking round the Night Safari was EXCITING!!! with me scaring van and bay(:(: loves......... NO MORE cool underground bands music like The Plain White T's....and NOW its aired on the effing RADIO! But so go dl-hate by The Plain White T's!!! =TOTAL LOVE!!!! tralalalala......... NO MORE online SHOPPING updates of me for you people.... and NO MORE SHOPPING cheap deals!!!!! boooo....... NO MORE MOOOO-VEEEE preview for you people.... ;p......... NO MORE bitching-feel sad:)

Just NO MORE BLOGGING for JOYCHANGYULING

HATE is a strong word;but I really really don't like you

Love you/ hate you, it's still an obsession.
You showed me what's love. I believed in what you have showed me. I loved you. But you taught me to HATE you, and have taught me to HATE love. My ability to HATE love has taught me to love no more. I don't wish for you to be back, I don't wish for you to be guilty, but I wish for you to be happy. How silly can I get? hurhur

we are never sad cause we are not allowed to be..

Is it you I want, Or just the notion Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around ...

He's found new love

Credits To: The Prawn.
haha. Prawn didn't want credits but I'll eeee-ritate and embarrass The Prawn.
ANONYMOUS PRAWN (lols)

Today was like chinese all the way. Chinese New Year is not over that is why. 'Lao shi' is like drowning us in cheena work. And we've been reading a lot of articles!!!! Had Chinese R.T today. After chinese R.T, Deanna and I rushed down to Hougang for chinese tuition! Chinese here there and everywhere else. I guess I'll go back and stick with my old saying, "Born chinese learn chinese."
(When will I ever learn?)

His new love is not anonymous. I wonder if its true. Signs make me believe that there's a new girl, oh! Now it only matters if I believe in the unsupported source. What am I to do or to say. I guess I'll just have to overcome this fact that you and I just don't love no more. The chemistry have evapourated, its gone. What has become the two of us;what is wrong? For what I know that I will make it true. Its that the friendship between us will never go, but will grow. Many times I've said that you didn't believe that its true. I tell you once again, I love you so.

many things unsaid

should I leave them unsaid?
Did I leave those things unsaid or is it you?

I WISH SOMEBODY CAN TELL ME!!!!!

Shimada and I have been thinking and talking about it the whole entire day, on why can't we understand these kind of guys. Not only that. Why do we still like them so much after what they have done to us.

1 WHY is not enough.

I just don't love you no more. (do I)

I don't even know what I am actually feeling.

Do you love me still?

HAVE YOU EVER?

Even if you didn't, did you feel my love for you.

Nobody can just explain the situation between us, maybe you can.

I can't.

Lost, broken, a missing piece.

Why?

Why do I confuse my feelings with the truth.

I know you ever had feelings for me;you told me that you had, can I trust those words. Why does my heart tell me that I can't, once I asked you just to reassure. You ask me if I'm doubting you. NO! I never did. Its just that a girl's heart leads her thinking astray. I just want to be your "911" being there when you need me. What did I do wrong that we turned out this way? WAIT. I'm the girl NOT the guy.

Things will never turn out the way I want it to be;when it comes to relationships.

God, thank you for this emo-soul of mine.

My poor old soul that is wrenching, feeling the fear of love. What turned me this way.

Will I ever still believe in love?

After it failed me that many times ...

God, if love is a word that is so great and indefinable, I can still find love in the dictionary.

What in the world do I deserve this? Am I not pretty enough. NO! That's lust already.

Why can't I feel the world

Tell me I'm not being paranoid

!!!WARNING: GIRLS DON'T LEARN TO BE AS EMO AS THE EMO-LAMMA, me...