HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Lets all KICK-START the new year, that's what I've been telling almost everybody to start the new year right and all. By not getting smashed and wasted during the new year and forgetting all undeserving memories. But guess what? I don't act what I preach. SUCKer!-this is how you spell j-o-y

I got smashed in the New Year and I'm too positive, thinking that everything is going to be alright when I started my own disaster upon my emotions. I'm okay, I'm alright, I guess.
My first blog post will just have to be about him. God, please tell me what am I doing with myself. I feel stooopit talking to him.

Why can't I talk to him like how I talk to the other guys? He's just an ordinary friend. I can be myself in front of the others but why can't I just be myself in front of him. I always feel speechless in front of him. What is it that makes him different, I see him normally, he got 2 eyes, one nose, one mouth and two ears, just like any other. Inside its different.


XOXO,
joy 2007