Pass me a stick and a lighter right now, please.

I HATE YOU!

I seriously hate YOU. There's just this communication barrier between us. We just can't talk to each other nicely. Why can't you just understand that I've grown and ....

I can't take it anymore. She's literally killing me softly inside.

I guess I'm just going to take out the expired box of cigarettes and burn my throat.

FUCK. I just don't know what I'm suppose to do. Sit her down and talk to her? If that works I would have done it eons ago. God! Please, I beg of You to just get her to understand me! Let her fucking mind know that i'm fucking SEVENTEEN and I'm not a kid anymore. Not a kid that she can yell at at anytime she desires. Not a kid that would forgive and forget, with a candy. Not a kid that sleeps over matters, and everything goes fine the next day.

I AM JUST NOT A KID ANYMORE!

I don't want myself to grow to hate you.

I guess... my life is destined to be in this way

A day that I thought was going to be boring(:

WEEKEND IS -a-r-h-l-g-i-t-------- !!!!!
I thought this week my weekend is going to be SUPER DUPER fucking boring. But it seemed to turn out right! (: yipeee it turned out great cause I've got GREAT FRIENDS!!! LOVE y'll!!!!!
I'm ELATED cause, I DIDN'T HAVE TUITION TODAY!!! NO 3M(MongMeiMeng) TODAY!
I didn't want to go to church today cause it was some deliverance service thingo and I don't like this kind of things. Guo asked me if I was afraid that's why I skipped. To be seriously honest, I'm NOT afraid and I really do not like this kind of service. I don't know why, I just don't like it. Therefore I skipped church today(: (But guys I'm seriously trying to go back to church.)

So I thought that the rest of my day is going to be boring cause I will have no where to go and no where to kill time. At first, earlier in the day, I texted everyone that I know and asked them what they're going to do. And GUESS WHAT!!!! nobody actually replied me, do you know how rejected and ignored I felt???! haha. Maybe I just want people to reply me at an instant thats why. But eventually they replied me one by one. lols.

Sarah couldn't go out with me as she had a RING MYSTERY to solve with her god-ma, mother and Kelly.
Jia Man didn't reply me until.... I met Chloe.
Van was suppose to hang with me, but she went to church instead.
Bay replied late cause she was in school for arty farty.

Eventually I met up with bay-bay. I decided that we should kill time by watching a moo-vie. Wanted to watch The Simpsons. But I just couldn't bare to splurge my cash on a 50mins mooo-vie. Went to Cine, all the tickets was like almost OUT, just to add the Queue was like taller than I am. Walked and walked and walked... saw him play.. did we exchange eye-contact? did you see me? I don't know if you even recognise me..lols. you look hot btw.(don't let this get to your head!)

Ended up at Cathay, The Cathay, with a French mooo-vie. It was a pretty good film I can say. After the mooo-vie baybay had to head home, she had an early early curfew! Thought that I could meet Jims. But the time that she texted me was at 6 and I replied her at 7 cause I was in the theatre. I was too late so I couldn't meet her): She then asked me to text Erika Shimada, so I did. As usual Shimada was hanging at F.E.P with her malay boyfriends lols. Wanted to join her but I kept feeling that it's going to be weird. Shimada told me to go see Cassie perform at The Arts House, but I was lazy. While walking to meet Shimada, I thought of Chloe! teehee. I was on time! It was that she was just done with studying at Jiaman's crib, so she called me straight after my text. Told me that she's going to mee her little bro and cous. at Clarke Quay. She asked me if I wanted to join her. I said okay.

Choo-Choo-ed down to Clarke Quay. Saw the fireworks(:-beauitiful! They wanted to sheeesha... but we didn't haha. Headed down to The Arts House, planning to see Cass perfom but she was already done): So we just checked The Arts House out, it was coolness. Then I felt like having STARBUCKS!! Brought them to One Fullerton to "chill" -cool place they thought. Chitt-chatted FUNNESS!!!! I don't know what brought them back to their childhood memories, but it sure was fun hearing their stories... it sure was funny and interesting... haha and CUTE.
I LOVE YOU ALL! YOU MADE MY SAT FUN! Love you Chloe(:

Then it was ten-thirty and they wanted to head back to their cribs. But before that Guo called me and asked if I want to meet him, so before I left I called him and he said he just ended dance and he wants to MAKAN. Believe it or not! I followed him to makan, and as usual he pissed the hell out of me. But he was love and eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-ritating. Will treat you cigarettes next time I see you okey?

JOY choo-choo-ed home.
Dad picked Joy at YCK. and I casually said 'FUCKER' in front of dad! When I realise that, I kept quiet and changed the subject. Maybe I should stop with the frequent vulgarities):
Tired day.

who are those that hate MUSTAFA?

I ADORE MUSTAFA!!!!
OMG ! On Friday, it was my first and ever time that I ever stepped into Serrangoon Building a.k.a MUSTAFA. From the comments that I've heard from otherssss(friends), they said that Mustafa was smelly and horrible. O.M.G those people are so stereotypical! Whoever has a bad impression on Mustafa(like I use too), PLEASE change your mindset and head down to Mustafa Centre right away-it's 24 hour.
Why do I say that Mustafa is love.
Mustafa is love because the stuff there is DIRT-CHEAP!! Like the pens I bought was like $0.10 or $0.50 cheaper than outside. AND I BOUGHT A CASIO CALCULATOR WATCH!!!!! NICENESS !!! It's like freaking cheap. It was like 25 bucks! Tell me where can you get the Casio calculator watch for 25bucks! @ MUSTAFA! I almost bought a "punjabi" top which was super nice. That's what I thought and it's like super cheap-10 bucks! But mom said I was MAD!
But if you really want to check the place out you must remember to go to the right building. Cause there're two buildings, and I heard that the second building is really bad.
F.Y.I- to know which building to go too, enter the building that's facing the road, with lots of GOLD on display and there's a WIDE watch and electronics section. THE APPLE NANO IS CHEAP! Retail 4GB nano is about $368-I think. At Mustafa is $310-approx.?? I can't remember(: But if you haven't been there its good and cool...
do consider visiting (:

weekend well spent(:

Yep! Another weekend well spent(:
haha Although I did not like study or whatsoever but I hanged out with bestie!!
Bestie is LOVE!!
Started off the day as usual, with tuition and then I promised besto that I would go to church with her. So I did. Went to church for service(duh). There was awkwardness in the air, I could feel it, and so did best, she could feel it too-only towards the human. I really do not know why I felt weird when I saw him, I could feel that he felt weird too. Coversations before, when we meet were okay and fine. Conversations on the phone were fine as well. Conversation through text messaging was fine as well. Why now when we meet there's this sense of awkwardness? I wish I'd could read minds, so I can figure it all out.
Church as well was weird for me. I felt weird when I was standing there during Praise & Worship. Why is this so? Is it because I haven't been to church? Or I'm labelled as 'unholy'. Anyhow, I thank God for best friends cause she was there for me. And I guess she felt that I felt weird cause I was telling her how ''extra'' I felt when I was standing there. And she just told me not to worry, I'm not being an 'extra' and she tried to comfort me. I felt better after that. THANKS BEST, I love you(:
After service, I thought best was going to join them to eat and all. But she told me that she wanted to go study. All along I was thinking that she's going to go with the cell to The Airport to eat Popeyes' and I was thinking.... 'omg joy what are you going to do next, where are you going to go? You've got nobody to meet this weekend..' Then best asked me, so where you gonna go.. I don't know where to go as well. Then we decided to go and makan together! haha. At TCC- CORN SOUP!!!!!!! Planning our route on the choo-choo was a difficult task cause of National Day rehersals. Eventually we still went to City Hall and we did not go to TCC. We ate CHIPPY's and 3 li yuan yuan. (wow! tako-sucks!) Thinking of a place where we can have our take-outs. We headed down to The Esplanade despite the rehersals. Saw the P-5 school keeeds walking to their buses and I decided to be naughty and I joined their queue!!! hahaha. THEY MADE US WALK A BIG ROUND): I guess I lost 0.000000001kg LA! pfft. haha
One Fullerton's Starbucks is LOVE! Sitting by the river, eat, talk cock, CAM-WHORE!!!(till my mem-card's full!) haha. Best, I HAD FUN!
That summerises my day... oh besides trying to go down to DXO to check out if there's any band playing cause I remembered wrongly the date that someone's playing at DXO and met ERIKA SHIMADA. Plus I saw Zac's loserish friend. haha. Thank god he didn't see/reconigse me. HAHA and van saw santos the mentos.
Bus-ed to GRAMS crib and slept.

Friends are such LOVE

Hey girls thanks for your comments. My mar-tha and I are somehow fine with each other now short greetings exchanged. So I guess it can be considered as we're talking to each other now. She talked to me first haha. Whatever it is... we're cool with each other(:

Do you remember Racial Harmony Day?

Mother.

Ma-ah, mother, mommy, mom, mama, momma, MA!, MAR-THE....
Cold war hasn't end yet. The battle is still on. Why?
Mom. When will this end.
I wish this ends soon. But I'm not doing anything to settle this war.
I'm not going to raise a white flag above my head.
Cause.... I know I'm getting a little contradicting already...
I just don't know what I'm suppose to do.
Not talking to her for 1 week and 4 days and suddenly I talk to her.
It's going to be weird for me. I already am feeling weird being in the same room as her.
Tell me what am I to do.

Poll.

Everyone out there that comes to this blog. Please do the poll thank you.
I think it's an anonymous poll. So I won't know who poll-ed what.
Unless you want me to know, you can be like tab tell me on the Tag Board. lols
Support me ? and the polling system?
Thank Y'll awaiting results! (:
Thanks Tab for being the 1st, love you!

Harmony.

We, the citizens of Singapore,
pledge ourselves as one united people,
regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society
based on justice and equality
so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and
progress for our nation.
patriotic

dead blogger?

Have I been a dead blogger? I guess I have. Sometimes blogging can be fun but at times it is a chore. lols. By updating mostly every single day about a person's mundane life and the world comes to read it. What joy do people find in this? Unless they are like particularly interested in that person's life. Wow, so can we call that kind of a person a stalker-besides the meaning of following someone's footstep, can we use it by following up with one's personal life?
How contradicting can I get?

BIRD-DAYS!!!!

9th JULY
Clar.'s 19th!
wow

7th JULY
CHLOE's seventeenth
love love!

6th JULY
Cousin. OLD
(:

IT'S EARTH DAY-SCREAM!!!

07.07.07
LIVE EARTH on channel 5
cool bands performing.
HAPPY EARTH DAY!!!
WEAR GREEN!!!

small talks, conversations and bitching.

I had Chinese Orals yesterday. YES! Chinese O' lvl orals! If you're going to ask me how did it go/whatsoever. I'm just going to tell you, if I pass, I would seriously thank God and might even talk to Him every single day. But I really want a merit. If I get a merit, try to find me in a corner. Cause I'll be standing in a corner and will be laughing to myself. Silly?-I know.
I've been thinking, why do we have to take chinese? Why can't God just allow us to born in a way that we can speak both English and Chinese naturally. My parents ain't good english speakers and they've been trying really hard to pronounce words correctly and I will have to correct them at time. They may use 'good' words but majority are pronounced wrongly. how embarrassing?! What more when they can barely speak, read or write Chinese.
I NEED TO HAVE A SPECIAL POWER THAT ENABLES ME TO SPEAK ANY LANGUAGE I WANT.-tell me I'm dreaming...
My oral reading passage was alright and according to the others the conversation topic was easy. And today's passage was pretty easy but their conversation was a little difficult. I wish I could just retake orals. How nice can that be, omg!
So today, those who took orals yesterday stayed back to do their Chemistry test. Test on Rate Of Rxn and Redox. I thought the test was only on Redox, so I only studied Redox the day before and did not study Rate Of Rxn. Went to school found out at the last min. To think I was rather confident about the test, CAUSE I STUDIED haha. After realising that there was another chapter tested, I freaked, literally. Read through hurriedly, scanned through someone's book. Took the test, was rather relieved, still had my confidence. Awaiting results impaitently.
Went to Serene Centre, Macdonald's after the test to study. I haven't been there in AGES!!!, to study. Was rather productive in a way but unproductive as well....
CAUSE Yoke Wan, Shalyn and Sheryl came as well. We started talking and talking and talking. NON-STOP! It seems like we've missed out on each other A LOT! haha. But it sure was fun talking. Sepnt 2 hrs bitching about everything and anything under the sun. Until they left than I started studying..
Completed my S.S structured essay then headed home.
Bus-ed back with Bay then Dad picked me from Castle Green's bus stop. Headed home, changed and left for Tampines, Century Mall. MY FIRST TIME THAT I'D BEEN THERE! Freaking heartland! ALL MOM'S FAULT! SUPER AUNTY LA, Metro Closing down Sale! and therefore we landed up there! pfft.
Had Jln Kayu Roti Prata for supper, yums.

Many plans made for tomorrow!
Find me in H.V(Holland Village) you can throw your coins into my Flag Day tin! I will give you many many stickers!!! hahahaha
ciao y'll LOVE

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