more picturesss.......

TAG REPLY ://

TAB **- TAB I LOVE YOU RIGHT BACK! ya I love your FUN and company! you were like fucking FUNNY when you needed to sleep and you started talking nonsense while playing Monopoly. AHHH cab fare's cheap! Oh and the money return me when I see you again or something, take your time k? If you forget and I forget JUST FORGET IT! LOVE!
``HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

JIMIN **- JIMSSSS ohhh you KIMCHI!!!! love you too!!!!! one day you must cook Korean food for me to EAT! haha LOVE!

CHLOEEE **- I LOVE YOU RIGHT BACK TOO!!!!! Thanks and DON'T GIVE A DAMN by what that shit as Tricia says k. (WTF, I know you don't even think she exists!) LOVE again..

TriciaImYourGod **- omFg!!!! YOU ARE NONSENSE! THIS IS NOT ENTERTAINMENT!!

I've HAD ENOUGH!

"I'VE HAD ENOUGH!"
I'M TELLING YOU KNOW YOU SHIT FUCK SPAMMER. BEING NICE TO YOU WAS A FUCKING WRONG DECISION. I'M GETTING BERSERK!! IT WAS ALREADY BAD ENOUGH THAT YOU ARE TALKING BAD ABOUT ME IN MY OWN BLOG AND GOD KNOWS WHERE ELSE!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO BE NICE ANYMORE CAUSE I KNOW MY FRIEND HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS! SHE FUCKING CARES THAT IS WHY SHE EVEN BOTHER TAGGING TO YOU! I'M SO NOT FUCKING PROUD ! ITS JUST THAT YOU THINK YOU'RE LOSING FACE BY ME SAYING THAT YOUR "ENGLAND SUCK AND ITS SO POWDERFUL!" YOU'RE JUST UNHAPPY THAT YOU HAVE NO SAY AND NO RIGHT TO EVEN SHIT! (haha.I'm crappping) ANYWAY BACK TO THE POINT! OMFG! DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTAND ME ?? MAYBE WE'RE JUST FROM DIFFERENT WORLDS! 'ni dong wo jiang she me ma?' MY FRIEND IS JUST TRYING TO SUPPORT WHAT I'M SAYING! NOBODY SAID THIS IS A COMPETITION. AND PLEASE, YOU'RE THE ONE THAT STARTED ALL THIS SHIT CRAP, YES SO CONTRADICTING! (do you know what contradiction means?) YOU ARE AGAIN. FIRST BY SAYING YOU'RE NOT RUDE THEN SAY YOU ARE THEN I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU ALREADY.
FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK BITCH! NOBODY CALLED YOU A BITCH AT ALL AND NOW YOU'RE CALLING EVERYBODY A BIATCH? WTF. BIATCH VERY NICE TO SPELL IS IT??? OR DO YOU THINK THAT BIATCH IS A MORE "chim" WAY IN CALING ANOTHER BITCH.
hey. get a life please? ? ? grow up, I know you're like fucking 14 only. and be honest shit face how did you find your way here? Do you need your momma to bring you back home cause you're LOST? arghh... GIVE ME A BREAK pleaseee

MY POST CHRISTMAS PARTY turned out to be an OUTING and TIME OF HANGING OUT

Pictures speaks a THOUSAND and ONE words//haha.
p.s we're like BLOODY CAM-WHORErrrsssss\\haha.

:// THE PEOPLE - +cassie (she left early)

:// I LOVE YOU GUYSSS LIKE A keTRILLION!

:// FUN!! with you girls..

:// TOO MUCH is NOT in our vocabulary for FUN.

://THIS NEVER ENDS!


MORE TO COME FROM THREE more OTHER CAMMS!!!!!!!!!

spammer mail

you should be honoured that you have a post to you.
I know I don't have to be nice, but I just want to, spammers get special treatment.
Yep. I think you have totally mistaken me. You don't know me and you know how I communicate with guys? HUH? You DO NOT make any sense.
By the way I see you're using better grammar now. KEEP IT UP!
Nobody said that I'm a saint, I'm not acting one, if I look like one, oh then thank you. Nobody is perfect realise that! Even the coolest person in town isn't perfect, so I don't think that I'm right all the time. Okay. To clear the air between you and I.
I don't think you even know him, Benjamin. Do you know the Benjamin I know?
SO... You know me indirectly? Through who?
I'm not acting smart in front of guys, why should I. If I do they will be chased away, guys love their faces. So a tip to you, don't over smart a guy. He will then think you're too smart for him.
Okay, I've got a feeling I know which friend of which you are, I'm not trying to butt into others problems. But if your friend comes to you in ask of a question to deal with an eeeeeeeee-ritating girl? DUH, you'll so HELP him.
ALRIGHT! I just read through my last reply to you, and I don't find any BOMBASTIC words there. I'm NOT acting smart maybe I'm just better than you in the subject, English.
Yep. Yep. No 'probbys' my FRIENDS will know when to shake their ASS in, they do it fast cause they care.
Okay! About the reputation thingO. You don't think reputation is a GREAT thing? Its a matter of life and death, you know what does reputation mean right..
Err.. I think you're a little contradicting towards yourself?

p.s do you know that you're not rude at all. HAHA. I can't believe I'm telling you this!

another song to let my life pass

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

*repeat

To: bestyy

best!! I LOVE YOU!!
boger and jurjer too.
HEARTS k?
I'll be there whenever you need me.
like I tell Rah.
no matter rain or shine
tsunami or katrina
earthquake or sand storm.
WHATEVER (this is so cheesy)
I'll be there !!
LOVE!!!!

to : "spammer"

Dear spammer,
why do you not like me ? what have I done to you?
(have you stepped on my toe that I stepped back?)
I don't know any tricia's in my whole entire fucking life.
So I believe that you don't know me as well (unless you know me but use another identity)
and you're saying that I think I'm a good flirt with guys?
Huh? GROSS, NO! I don't even know how to spell F-L-I-R-T.
errr.. HUH? I barely know any guys. Ya. (:
And to be honest I don't know what I'm doing with the current guy now, its so unsure if he still likes me and I'm utterly confused now.
I wish he just tells me directly and not indirectly.
I may have flings but not ex-bfs.
OMG! Why am I telling you all this? Maybe I would just like to clear the air between you and me and let you know more about me? My psychic feelings tell me that you're a stranger thinking I'm stealing your friend's boyfriend.
Tell me how would you feel if someone spams your blog as well. Ruining your reputation with untrue things? And spamming is so OLD-SCHOOL. Grow UP!
errr. so take care.
and EH! I'm trying to be nice here so DON'T YOU omggg ME AGAIN!
THIS IS SO ESPECIALLY FOR YOU!

I get it! how to express yourself to someone how you feel through a song.

Here's it to you:

Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
because its cold outside cold outside its cold out side
share with me the secrets that you kept in
because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that your scared like me
so lets pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know we're unprepared
but I don't care

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

I was born to tell you
I love you its that a song already
I get a B in originality
and its true I cant go on without you
your smile makes me see clear
if you could only see in the mirror

what I see and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that your scared like me
so lets pretend were alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know we're unprepared
but I don't care

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

slow down girl
you're not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I am much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise
I can be what you need

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible

this few days alternative rock, indie bands are in me now.
bare with me

I dont know what you want from me and I don't kow what I want from you BUT all I know is that I LOVE MY FRIENDS

;I LOVE BEST!!

; she can just take in all my NONSENSE with the little energy she has

; Boger and JurJer she bought me for CHRISSY! as well as to fix up the tank ((:

; my tai-tai girls joining in my funny faces haha

;LOVE!!!!!! I miss three of us together!! BAY must be more narssictic[sp?]

; okayyyy.. back to my CRAZY-ness

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

thoughts

I don't know what I'm after.
I just feel stupid and brainless when I'm talking to you(not that you're smart).
I feel like I'm just wasting my time on you cause you don't bloody care.
Do I not know what I'm after, or do you not know what you're after.
This time its not killing me inside, I don't know why.
I don't give a fucking damn. I don't know why are you doing this to me.
If you don't like me, please dont hurt me.
"don't play with me, my paper heart will break"-The All American Rejects
I'm confused. Am I that vulnerable. What am I that you can't be frank with me.
My friends tell me that you're bringing someone to join you in your emo-ness and sorrows. You think that Joy(I) is the one that you can pull along, cause I'm the one you don't know well and open to who you are and I'm the one that goes all soft and happy when you talk to me and I'm the one that you're not close too so I'm just the right one that you think you can try hurting cause I'll stay happy forever, no matter what and you think that that will not change in me. I tell you, Mr. Ong, I'm STILL HUMAN afterall. Please have some thought for that.
Trying to turn the joy in me?
I ain't called Joy for a reason. SORROW is such an ugly name!
Are you going to be happy if everything I thought came true, if you are, FUCK YOU, but I wouldn't mind if that just makes you happy.

Well thats just a piece of my mind. Darll just gave me another part of my mind, that goes against, a total opposite. Maybe I just don't, really don't understand emo people. I'm trying to think things out with me, myself and I now.

peace out

Boger and JurJer

THATS Boger and JurJer!!!! hee. the one INSIDE=Boger and OUTSIDE=JurJer((:

This two GOLDFISH things are my chrissy prezzie from bestyy!! wha-hoooo~~ I LOVE! Best is SERIOUS on buying me a goldfish! OMG! and she even bought me a oxygen thingy and those deco, seaweeds!! hahaa. PLUS! she provided me with the TANK too. I LOVE YOU BESTIE!!

*hearts

MERRY X'MAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAG REPLIES!!!! ://

TAB:// yep. Kay!!! see ya at the PARTY!

DEANNA:// MERRY X'MAS!! I MISS YOU!!!! WHAT?! Moses? haha. I don't know. I don't think so. Moses can also haha. He's taller than Nathan! haha I LIKE TALL GUYS! lols. love back!

a merry laSy chrissy

Celebrated chrissy with MY FAMILY yesterday, on the eve! Had a chrissy dinner at home with the folks and coussies. Food was Y-U-M-M-Y-L-I-C-I-O-U-S ! I ate like an entire COW, haha. Went out earlier in the day with my cous, Janell cause she dated me out wanting to buy her stuffs. As she likes my fashion opinions I give her, haha. I'M GOOD!! ANYBODY? (ego's growing) I saw many beautiful stuffs! But I can't buy them as... I'm suppose to shop for others! Their chrissy prezzies! WTH! Managed to buy 2 so now.. I left 2 more.

Went home at about 5+ 6 to join in the dinner. My grand aunt (my late grandmother's sister?) she got drunk haha. And she started talking nonsense (HILARIOUS!) and started dancing to the music beat of the ending tune of the tv show. FUNNY FUNNY FUNNY!

Anyway after I'm full and bloated cous and I had to clean up! WTH, I know. Standing in the kitchen. I SOAP, she rinse and dry. More and MORE plates kept on coming in when we're almost done. When everything is so OILY! My hands turned old and wrinklelyy. Bro had to take pictures! cause its shocking to see me in the kitchen helping! like ARGHHHH! I look so ugly and fat in those pictures haha. My bro is such a LOUSY photographer!

After all that commotion, we had no clue on what we can do. So I asked bro, while drinking my tasty white wine. Asking what are we going to do than to sit here and ROT! He replied, ok lets drink and talk then when we cannot take it anymore! We go SLEEP! I said okay! WTH right?

But that didn't happen! haha. Cous and I went to ViVOCity, to watch a mid-night MOO-VIE! Eating baby food and chillin' out outside, letting mosquitoes bite me!, allowing time to pass us by. We felt literally miserable, as there were like only 2 of us! haha. CAMMY WAS THERE TO SAVE US!!!!!! yay! So, many pictures were taken.

Night At The Museum was a good show. NICE!

Now. I'm slacking at home. Woke up at about 1 haha. Having nothing to do, I'm feeling like this year christmas is boring and everybody doesn't have many plans. Last year was a blast, to think of it J and I spent our first chrissy together last year. haha. Yep with the others as well! But it sure was fun, at the carnival in church, we winning a blue frog, us sitting at the esplanade then eating supper. It was fun! This year though we're not miles apart, we're beings apart haha. I remembered your chrissy gift! MEET UP SOON! Remeber the date!, SOON!

This year, there's just nothing to do. Thank God I didn't agree to work today! Waiting for B to wish me Merry Chrissy, it seems like that will not happen haha. I know he's not this kind of a person. Anyway he didn't even remember my birthday, so no biggy. We're just going to be good friends forever! I'm happy with that anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA JIA!!!!!

THE CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER

Believe it or not. I went to watch The Curse Of The Golden Flower, staring Jay Chou, Chow Yun Fat and Gong Li. Surprisingly, the movie is rather a good one. The settings and plots were a mystery. I didn't mind spending my money watching this ancient Chinese show staring Jay Chou. Its good shit. Thank God! Singapore didn't rate it NC-16 or else the poor kids under 16 will feel miserable not watching their idol, Jay Chou. I say so as the show is basically filled with violence and obscenity. You'll just see blood splattering everywhere, people getting stabbed, beheaded and slashed right in your face, "neh-nehs" jiggling this is how the females wear(one part, gong li was exposed.lol) and sadistic Chow Yun Fat. I believe many guys were like wanking in the show haha. WTH.
F.Y.I: Jay Chou CAN! speak properly. haha.



ANW. here's a summary I 'kope' from GV. (:
China, Later Tang Dynasty, 10th Century.

On the eve of the Chong Yang Festival, golden flowers fill the Imperial Palace. The EMPEROR (Chow Yun Fat) returns unexpectedly with his second son, PRINCE JAI (Jay Chou). His pretext is to celebrate the holiday with his family, but given the chilled relations between the Emperor and the ailing EMPRESS (Gong Li), this seems disingenuous.


For many years, the Empress and CROWN PRINCE WAN (Liu Ye), her stepson, have had an illicit liaison. Feeling trapped, Prince Wan dreams of escaping the palace with his secret love CHAN (Li Man), the Imperial Doctor's daughter.


Meanwhile, Prince Jai, the faithful son, grows worried over the Empress's health and her obsession with golden chrysanthemums. Could she be headed down an ominous path?


The Emperor harbors equally clandestine plans; the IMPERIAL DOCTOR (Ni Dahong) is the only one privy to his machinations. When the Emperor senses a looming threat, he relocates the doctor's family from the Palace to a remote area.

While they are en route, mysterious assassins attack them. Chan and her mother, JIANG SHI (Chen Jin) are forced back to the palace. Their return sets off a tumultuous sequence of dark surprises.

Amid the glamour and grandeur of the festival, ugly secrets are revealed. As the Imperial Family continues its elaborate charade in a palatial setting, thousands of golden armored warriors charge the palace. Who is behind this brutal rebellion? Where do Prince Jai's loyalties lie? Between love and desire, is there a final winner?

Against a moonlit night, thousands of chrysanthemum blossoms are trampled as blood spills across the Imperial Palace.

TAG REPLIES!!!!

BAY!!! : eh don't WTH me la. you're inside BE HAPPY??! yep. Not only an Indian! BUT a CHINDIAN hotty.

sarahCEE ! ! ! : hey.. hmphhh alright la but a little weird. haha. yeh yea I KNOW. HE LOOKED CUTE. I'll see you at the POST CHRISSY PARTY???

SANDRA !!!! : haha. when I've got the cash! I just went shopping todaya and I spent a BOMB on my family's chrissy prezzies and my work place people's prezzies.. DON'T WORRY you've got many other chances to DATE me out! haha I'm FREE already NO MORE WORK!!! whahahah. LOVE missya too

CHARIS! : hey dear. you alrighttss? you can have me, can you afford it? haha. j.k

JIAJIA : oh YAY!!!!!! you tagg!! whahaha. leave your link or give me through msn k? love! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!! (hope I'm not wrong)

righttt.

I worked again today, FULL-TIME.

So, I went to the toilet, cause I was urgent. Then I think there's this two kids that needed to pOO. So.. their mom tell them that she's wait for them outside.

Then,
girl(1) : are you done?
girl(1) : I did 3 pieces already. You?
girl(2) : huh? I done 2 only.
girl(1) : can you see me??
girl(2) : no.
(1) : there!
(2) : ya ya your leg!
(1) : haha. aH!
(2) : what happen?
(2) : why you never lock your door? faster go lock
(1) : where did mommy say she wait for us?
(2) : I don't know.
(1) : she told you
(2) : no. I thought she tell you.
(1) : oh no. then how to find mommy now?

LOL! OMfG! This two girl CRACK me up when I was in the toilet! haha. The pieces part is the funniest!! haha. I have no time to see their faces haha.

WORK. As usual, its tiring and exhausting. Met new peeps, Shirley and Curtis. The shop was overflowing today!!! The queue was like, *poof! The amount of people is like, *poof! (as well) haha. I went *poof! as well. Well, Curtis was helping me at the any name in a frame station as there were like TONS and MILLIONS of people making them as I believe that that is the most simple gift anyone could give! And its rather worth it. Even this lady made friends with me, as I'm always standing there and making name frames. Alright, back to Curtis. So.. as I was saying he's helping me (not lying!) by standing there and helping me make all the names and blah.. Then after that June said that we were having our "moments" together or something like that. My brains went HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. But I couldnt laughed it out cause she was thinking the other way. My HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA is in a way that OMG! its FREAKING RIDICULOUS. I was like NO NO NO NO to her and she's like then why you two both standing there at the frames? Then I went, :"there were many names to make and many customers" and she unbelieving said:"you sure?" YES!!! Then I walked away. I tried to help as much as I can, and move away from that guy!(E, sorry) So that there will not be any misunderstandings.

When work ended. I went inside the so called "store" that we eat rest drink and EVERYTHING! I was happily sitting there with my legs cross and drinking my bubble tea. Then June mumbled to me looking at phone(looking as if she's not talking to me). She said: " eh Curtis asked me for your number, can I give?" . I went haha. Then I was like haha(and I walked out with my stuffs).

On my way back. I was in deep thoughts, and I decided that if he wants he should ask me himself and not secretly ask from June. And if he really do asks, I'll tell him, alright. My number is 999. You'll have to ask my "gang" I can give or my dad's number haha. ( so mean, I know)
xD -its just that I don't think I want to have another guy in mind when I have thought through things with another (: I want my heart to be a free bird!, and not one thats in a cage.

bad BAD BAD! dream

haha. You don't want to hear the dream I had in the morning. haha. If you want to continue reading. I hope this doesn't change the impression of me on you, I'm definitely NOT like that!

Here it goes, I dreamt that...

I went to the moovie marathon of Death Note with Bay. There's only the two of us (I didn't see anyone else), I sat next to this guy and Bay on the other side. While watching, suddenly his hand drops off the arm rest and onto my thighs. I got a SHOCK! and then suddenly he holds my hand inbetween my fingers and not let go. I looked at him, and he was an indian(no wonder bay didn't sit next to him), rather cute(WTH!), looking alittle cheena and a little indian, a chindian(maybe). I stared at him, wanting to let go, pulling my hand away, he didn't want to let go. Then, I said to him..

joy: "errr.. why are you grabbing my hand?"

joy: "can you please let go"

joy: " I don't know you"

the guy: " I don't want too"

joy: "why me?"

the guy: "I've been wanting to hold your hand from the very beginning."

joy: "(speechless)"

and I just held onto his hands. Bay saw and she gave me that weird look like, 'why are holding an indian stranger' look. I gave a crooked smile back to her, and leaned close to that stranger.

OK! I know it seems like I'm putting a bad impression upon myself. I was rather shock to have this kind of a dream. But I don't know why, I felt good holding that stanger's hand. It feels like I know him like the back of my hand, like I've seen him somewhere and was close with him. I don't know. Isn't it weird?

looking alike??

guys...

guys are dumb****s. They're roaches that run away from their girl problems. GUYS should be facing their problem like a MAN! MAN! man are gays! They maybe all macho and buff up but inside they're not! Girls can face reality better than guys. Thats what I think. If you don't like the girl (to ALL males out there!), please DO tell them I know it breaks a person heart at an instant. But its better than to keep them waiting. Don't avoid their messages/calls and even their being! Even a single reply will do GOOD;be VERY direct with the girl of you really don't have feelings for her. If you're the kind that doesn't want to break a lady's heart tell her "lets be GOOD friends!" (I'm going to tell a guy that later. that depends if he sees it on msn)
Guys! You're serious DUMBFUCKs. sighh.. why run away from a girl FACE REALITY dude.

SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN;so where is he??

I didn't club today whereas Sandra and Bessa went to ATTICA! Oh my! I want to know how's it inside!! haha I heard that many people went. But as for my close budds only Bessa and Sand went (as said earlier). They were like pestering me to go. I wanted too, as of curiousity. Dad picked me up from work again.(I feel like a kid;why can't my b.f pick me up instead of my dad) Sigh.
Then I asked him if I could go out after work, as in to home bathe and change then out I go. Instead a nice reply, he lectured me time and time again. Why does my dad menopause at such an OLD age? Then I was arguing with him WHY can't I go this time. I have went out late many times and this is not my first and I'm not going to make it my last. Then he started to show some care and concern in the whole situation. Saying things like, what if I fall sick again, I'm working again tomorrow, I'm tiring myself out, its raining, etc.. Its BULLSHIT. I know daddy cares for me but. He dampened my mood, it made me change my mins. So did the rain.

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY...
Its been raining like this for days already(make this the third, its after 12 already) THUNDER & LIGHTNING ! ! ! Dad said its going to be a disaster! (like WTF!) He even said that God is going to drown this tiny island or something like that. [mind my dad he's menopausing therefore the ku-ku-ness arghhhh..] I like rainy days, it makes me feel like sleeping MORE haha (piggy me). But unfortunately, I can't. I'm freaking working. And this few days they've been puting me on Full Shift. So I work from 1100 - 2200/2230. It really depends and having all the nonsense talk from the "seniors" at work its KILLING me! Now its nearing to christmas day to day, the shop is getting busier and busier day to day even on a WEEKDAY, today. The "seniors" think I'm a super cute (fuck!) laughing, bubbly worker. That owns a funny weird laughter, halal but eats wanton mee, speaks funny chinese and is fucking cute!(this gross me out) and nonsensical. But I think they think I'm troublesome as well as they treat me like a 'xiao mei mei'(little girl). And try to talk to me in ENGLISH when I can understand chinese! I CAN!

p.s dont discriminate Joy's chinese!

ATTN: WARNING!! PARTY COMING UP!!!

hello y'll!!!!
ABOUT THE CHRISTMAS PARTY??!
ITS BEEN POSTPONED ! ! ! ! !
BUT WE'VE GOT ALL THE DETAILS YOU NEED NOW. NOW ITS GOING TO BE A
POST-CHRISTMAS AND EARLY NEW-YEAR PARTY!!!
so all you friends OUT THERE!!! if you're gamed and want to join us! (lol) do tell me(JOY) or tell Jimin OR Erika!!

so WHAT?!?!? : its going to be a post christmas and early new year celebration BBQ
WHERE??? : ERIKA's crib. (lol) her house la!
WHEN?!?! : 29th December 2006 (Friday)

if there is any other infomation or changes I'll keep y'll informed!!
LOVE !
LOOK FORWARD TO THIS!!! excited.
planning still in process (I'm out of planning! whahaha)
SO GET READY YOUR PARTY GEARS & OUTFITS FOR A TIME OF jolly;holly FUN!


HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!


love again
-JOY(:

ask me how much I got for N's.

5 fucking points.
Don't you think five rhymes with fuck? This is the retribution I get for rhyming ALL THE TIME, darn. If you're telling me that its good already that I've got five (5) I'm sorry, I don't think it is. My aim is to get 5 points and BELOW. And all I get is on the DOT( . ) a five. WTH! This IS NONSENSE!!!!!! I want a THREE ( 3 ) !! I think they moderated the marks. I GOT A fucking TWO for my maths as well as for accounts.
HERE ARE MY RESULTS (according to the slip) :

ENGLISH LANGUAGE SYLLABUS A ONE
COMBINED HUMANITIES TWO
MATHEMATICS SYLLABUS A TWO
COMBINED SCIENCE (CHEM/PHYS) TWO
PRINCICPLE OF ACCOUNTS TWO
CHINESE THREE
CHINESE ORAL MERIT

I know how did I fucking get a ONE for english right? and why I got a TWO for maths and ACCOUNTS right??? Like... ARGHHHH and a TWO for SCIENCE too!!!
Do they moderate for N levels? I've got a feeling they did for MATHS.
arghhhhh......

tomorrow's the day thats gonna show where I'm fucking heading

RESULTS ARE OUT!!! !!! !!!(TOMORROW)

I want report cards like that! A+ all the way. The PARENT'S SIGNIGTURE column is definitely to be filled in((:
like... ZOMG RESULTS are out tomorrow!!!! AFTER SO LONG!!!! I believe everybody is having mixed emotions now. They're either feeling EXCITED or they are feeling WORRIED. Oh! And about the mixed emotions? I tell you what its all about its spelt as J-O-Y, I'm feeling BOTH excited and worried. Like WTF( God you playing with my brains? ) after the looonnnnngggg WAITING of the RESULTS I'm getting a panic attack now??? and why must my parents put my SURNAME first instead of my name??? like JOY CHANG YULING and not CHANG YULING JOY and now I'm register no. (3)THREE. The tired to tremble in fear.
If I don't meet my expectation of 3 points/5 points and below. I'm gonna INDULGE(what a word) myself in a TUB OF ICE-sCREAM!!!! [killing two birds with one stone;after eating everything it can be used to fill all my tears]

NIGHTMARES are EVIL

misses for those strays

I MISS abraham lincon/BENJAMIN FRANKLIN/chao-ta marshmellow(LONG STORY!) & ABRAHAM LINCON !!!!
don't ask!
haha they're freaking CATS! I met at the CHALET! lols.
I feel that I'm weird.
I know I have a phobia for cats but I made friends with this two and I named them as well. (;

TAG REPLIES ://

CHARIS CHOOO : STOOPIT 5/HR ONLY!!!!! THIS IS TORTURE!!!! OH WHERE WERE YOU WORKING AT??? ILLEGAL AH YOU ONLY 15 !!!!!

SARAH : why??????!!!! WHY????? WHY CAN'T YOU JOIN US FOR CHRISTMAS???? WE'VE HAVE PLANNED THIS A LONG LONG TIME AGO! I'M FEELING ANGRY NOW!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE WORK! WORK IS DESTROYING US! ! ! you like only cause thats the only way you can get out from your FREAKING chamber!!!! love you back :(

JOLENE : PLEASE... FREAKY ONLY WHEN I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT THING TONG GOES HAHAHAH NOW I KNOW. YOU'RE NOT ANYMORE ((:

LIFE RUIN cos of work.

Joy is like FREAKING TIRED! Working every single day is disturbing my normal life, social life as well as my personal life! I WANT TO QUIT! or at least PLEASE DO FIRE ME!!

I FELL SICK and I think I am recovering but guess what???

I think I'm going to fall sick again.

and I'm working every single freaking day! even if you want me to work DON'T make me work EVERYDAY and only have a day off on sat! Then back to work on SUNDAY?

I DON'T WANT TO WORK EVERYDAY!!!!

I THINK I'M GOING TO CRY!!!! I miss my momma's cooking I miss talking to my momma! I miss my HOUSE I miss slacking at home! I rather MOP THE FLOOR KEEP THE CLOTHES AND even WASH THE TOILET!!!!!!!!!!!

;work is killing me

;FUCK it upside down

mommy!! I miss your delicious FOOD that made me SO FAT!!!

I MISS MY FRIENDS!!!! that are MY JOY!!!!!

I MISS my fucking COUSINS!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

TAG REPLIES//

CHARIS CHOO!!! : HAHA...YA YA CUTE LIKE YOU(aiyoo so thick skin...j.k!) THANK YOU!!! [anwy I replied on your blog too heee(:]

JIMIN!!!!!! : OKOK!!! YOU PLAN GOOD OKAY!?????? FUN FUN FUN lalalala ;) LOVE

BAY !!!!!! : what talking you?? You making NO fucking sense! haha anyway I MIZZZ you!! I'll see you tmrw! LOVE! chill what? I'm chillin'

VAN ! ! ! ! ! ! : DUH!! SINGAPORE IS A fucking MULTI RACIAL COUNTRY!!!! I HATE WORK!!! ITS KILLING MY SOCIAL LIFE as well as personal!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-RITATING HUMAN BEINGS!

what am I doing??? oh ok. I see

THANKS SANDRA & ZARA FOR GIVING ME THAT SHOCKING SURPRISE! TODAY AT THE SHOP!!!!!!
It was really great seeing you guys after a long day at work during my break.
you're SO appreciated! definitely ON my CHRISTMAS LIST! love!

I've been seeing this CARD in the shop.

and on the front of the card it says, "I t

hought of you today...." and when you open the card it says, "and it feels good. I think I'm going to do it again tomorrow."

(not exact words but the meaning is there.haha)

Anyway, I'm busy like a bee. Working every single day!(except saturdays) until the 22nd of Dec. By then I'll have no time to shop for those prezzies for those peeps that I haven't bought. And I will also have to think WHAT TO BUY FOR THEM!!!!! I told Deanna last night (haha) "its so easy to receive but do difficult to give. can I just sit there and receive but not give?" OK I KNOW SHUT UP! Its selfish you don't have to tell me that. So to make my 'JOB'/'TASK' easier!!!! Tell me what you want for CHRISTMAS! (please not so expensive.) I'll try to be a 'GOOD' "santarina". WTF!

TIME AND CASH IS ALL I NEED NOW!

NOTICE

ATTENTION ! ! ! :
GIRLS ! !
LETS SPEND CHRISTMAS TOGETHER THIS YEAR !!
25TH DECEMEBER 2006
lets do gift exchange too;
if you're gamed for a christmas celebration TOGETHER!!!
TAG my tagboard OR sms me k?
SPREAD THE NEWS! ASK AROUND ((:
then those who are free like Ji Min and Erika or whoever... PLAN ! ! ! k k ???
LOVE y'll
HAPPY HOLIDAYS
<3s!!

I AM A CHINESE SPEAKING DUDE!

If I want to.

Okay why this topic? Maybe cause my workplace peeps somehow communicate in CHINESE!!! and everytime when they have briefing or whatsoever they will say...:"ok for joy's sake we'll switch to ch5!" (so pai-seh!) then I'll be like..:"OH! nvm.. its ok its ok! I can catch!" Then they will like pause and check on me like hey you still here?? understand?? I FEEL LIKE I'M A DISGRACE TO THE CHINESE RACE/COMMUNITY anyway today they said I spoke 'biao zhun hua yu'(accurate chinese.haha[?])as in the way I speak to the customer. Then they were saying that I will have to speak chinese from then on. And I was like OKAY! I'm GAME! (anyway its great practice for next year!) EVEN THE CUSTOMER LAUGHED AT ME! WTH!:@ after that they started making & poking fun at me and my SPEECH-darn.

CHINESE IS COOL! But I can't seem to speak good;as well as understanding. For me to understand you'll have to speak to me slowly...REAL SLOW! Or else I have no way to understand you. "My brain for chinese is like a scanner you'll have to wait for the information to appear on the computer and you'll have to check if the scan is clear"(get it?) OH WELL nvm, if you don't. Want me to understand you SPEAK SLOWLY and I will! ((:

This incident! This customer asked me if I'm Singaporean cause I was communicating in chinese with her, I couldn't catch what she was saying so I said NO! then after that I thought back then I said NO NO! YES I AM! my brain was like WTF! I'm SINGAPOREAN I'm PROUD to be one! haha.

OH what I always tell my friends when I'm studying CHINESE!!!

" BORN CHINESE;LEARN CHINESE ! "

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SENIOR!

btw, I MISS YOU SENIOR! we'll meet up SO soon!!!
loves

I've got NO clue why the sky is blue

I dont like him! I seriously DO NOT! I do not know why you people think so. Are you people that childish? I do not freaking know him how can I have feelings for him? If you people think that I like him, I tell you YOU ARE WRONG!!! I admit that I think he's like cute and all but please know its just a passing comment, okay as well as a thing to eeee-ritate amanda and FREAK her OUT! haha. (opps! see I'll have to say my secret!) I may repeat myself many times that he's cute and funny BUT I don't have feelings for him, there's someone else.
PLEASE STOP GIVING ME THOSE LOOK/STARES WHEN I MEET YOU!
if you're a friend please...

life

9th December

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUO!!!

(you better thank me for celebrating your BIRTH-day!)

I remembered it and rushed down to meet you peeps in the middle of the wedding dinner! and I almost got killed! by my relatives! thank God I've got my cous. with me thats heading down to ZOUKOUT

well. Met bestyy(Van) in the afternoon to head down to the LIME sonic bang &FLEA MARKET!

FUN FUN FUN. All the funky and pretty accessories that is udderly CHEAP! Walked around and walked out buying a NECKLACE and a pair of EARRINGS! omfgosh its like nice nice! bestss and I bought the same earrings but of a different colour! ((:

After that I went to watch JACK & THE BEANSPROUT @ The NLB. It was freaking HILARIOUS and entertaining! I thank God for the tickets cause I've been wanting to watch it after hearing the reviews and didnt mind buying the ticket and go by myself. However, I don't have to cause I was blessed with the tics! LOVE IT!

Then I headed back to the flea market to collect the necklace Van & I created. Wanted to buy this necklace for _____ but unfortunately its SOLD OUT! (good news is that I left my name and number they contacted me just now to say that there's stock!)

WEDDING DINNER! A matrimony was held, they sang hymns, praise and worship. Vows were exchanged, speeches were made and GRACE was said altogether. AMEN. okay I think I'm a disgrace to the christianity religion, to be honest the ceremony was boring, sorry. But the wedding was REALLY GREAT their speeches to their parents were really touching and moving, that it made my cousins and I cry.(dont call us emo) There are no Pictures! Well cause we were talking too much and were distracted by the food SO much that I didnt bother to take any pictures at the WEDDING )): sorry. But cousin Karen was really pretty! and her HUSBAND is really sporting and SWEET!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

I cant wait for my bro's wedding next year!! (so exciting!!!)

my HOT & PRETTY bests!

our earringsss..

LOVES!

guo is gay

loves bay

SO TODAY I'm SICK!

and my fucking dad is fucking eeeeeeeee-ritating. I DID message somebody telling her that I'm sick and I don't think I'm able to work today @ 1030 then I went back to sleep. I woke up again to check my phone and I saw her reply saying that she's not working today message somebody else. So I messaged the other in charge telling her and stuff and it was already 12plus (when I start work at 1230) then CALLS keep coming in. My head was too heavy to even walk to my phone. Dad BANG! into the room and yelled at me! saying that everybody is calling me and looking for me why didnt I turn up for work! and saying that I'm so irresponsible that I didnt tell them at all.

HELLO! WTH! like I DID! I DID tell them that I'm not in a position that I can WORK! you want me to work ok fine you CARRY me to work and I'll sit there like a dead girl when you still fucking pay me $5 per hour! If I'm fucking SICK and fucking don't know whats happening around me I can barely think and do you think that I can be next to my phone all the time??! and whats the problem with my DAD saying that I'm irresponsible when he fucking doesn't know anything. Its just that its the time of his life when every MAN definitely HAVE TO FACE! MALE MENOPAUSE! ! arghhh he's killing me! and Thank God my mom understands me THIS time or else I don't know what to do. and NOBODY is fucking bringing me to the docs! NOBODY fucking cares ! FUCK THIS MORTAL PLANET! WORK IS WORSE THAN SCHOOL!

I HATE YOU!

I just hate it when a male MOOD-SWINGS!

I feel that there's no fucking people around me can be there for me when I need them, even my family. SCREW it! !@#$%%$#@!#*^%

SURGE @ MOS !!!!!!!!

pictures taken from http://www.youthempire.com

go check it out!

F*CKING crappzzz

OMG! I clubbed yesterday. thats BAD! some went to FLOW @ MOS for the gigs some went for the crowd, dance-floor and fun. To be honest I tried to stay through the gigs but they ain't that good.. Therefore I went to SMOOVE a "room" in MOS that plays RnB/Hip-Hop that night. On that night that room was the room I belong to, NOT the main arena. They were FREAKING playing TRANCE and techno, a mixture of both..when they say that they're going to turn it into an RnB/Hip-Hop place after the gigs and lucky draws.
I went with Michy, Zara, Amanda, Sandra, Flo, Erika, Chloe and her bro. Then we met Mel-Png there and her friends, Rach.Yeong and her friend(she wasn't really that friendly), Rach.Mak and her cous and friends, ZhiXian and friends, Royy Tong, this few seniors;Faiz,Nicole,Gaya... , etc.. thats all. I think. all that I can remember. Made "friends" haha funny people. Drunkards to be exact COMICAL DRUNKARDS lols .. My friend's friendssss. Made friends with some smokers too haha shared cigs and lights.
The dance-floor was super super MEGA packed! ! ! like WTF! when you go into the main main area you'll feel like SARDINES! superly PACKED and VACUUMED in a can. Even if you cant dance you'll still be able too, cause the other people around you dancing will be pushing you all around, SERIOUSLY you don't need to move to MOVE. I superly HATE IT! like WTF somebody ate my tofu! FUCKg horny bastard piece of SHIT! (its PG-13!)haha. I know WTF JOY WTF! If you ask me why didnt I move away from him. Oh if I have a way I will cause i had the will! My face was all scrunched up when he was dancing with me cause he's like ELEPHANT GLUE and bay is pulling me away from another direction (at that point of time I wish I was rubber) until when this crowd pushed like typhoon wind and I was separated from that horny siamese fucker, I was elated at that point of time but that feeling sucked!! and the girls were like lets leave! I agreed and PUSHED my way out not caring about the others. BAD BAD experience, I have danced with others but this fucker is too much!
We're suppose to leave at 2+.. 3 (right?sand.?) eventually we left when the peeps were being shoo-ed out O was fucking waiting for them outside like a goon goon! SO.. we left at 5. After that we went to Liang Court's Macs to get some liqud into our souls. (saw that horny shit-I freaked! his eyes didnt leave me) I ENJOYED MY COKE LIGHT! Cabbed home.
Reached home at about 6 yeh-yeh(grand-pa) opened the door exactly and he was shocked to see me and was like "ni gang gang hui lai ah?" I FREAKED and was like " errr.. wo bang ni pick up na seih newspaper" and then I walked in and realised that it's already 6! and I have to work at 12:30 later in the day (which was just now) effing tired now.

people

I think and BELIEVE that there are many many diff. kind of people round the world. Okay not the world lets just say SINGAPORE alone.(lets leave the world out of this)
and DO YOU KNOW!? by working you do-DO! see the diff sides of diff people!
okay I tell you there are such beings called the 'bimbotics chinahss' haha they don't know that porcelain is breakable.(even JIMIN knows that!.lol. love you futt!)
there're FUNNY grand-grammss too!!!!! like this grandparents(Iguess!) came in today and ask me if the hippo look like a dog. and then she asked. "I'm actually looking for a pink dog for my boy." my eyes went O-0 ?? and I laughed to myself (discreetly-duh!) then she looked around and continued..."oh cause he has a blue dog already and now wants a pink dog to match his blue dog." then my reaction was like.... oOoOohhhhh I see xD. now.. i know.. so cute!
then a b-z friendly BOSS.
and cute guys
and smelly students
and weird peeps
and indians with STRONG accent
and cheapo parents
and RICH parents
and cool girls
and nice clothes (oh this has nothing to do with people)
and MANY branded people in LV GUCCI(many!!!) BURBERRY
and inconsiderate people
and friendly people
and CHINESE SPEAKING people.
talking about chinese speaking I MUST really improve on my chinese!!!! or else I can't serve those customers. I'm BAD at it ! I speak to them in a manner like.. "errr wo help you check?" then " I bang ni check" orr to an extent that I really cant speak! "WAIT!!!!! sorry, dui bu qi" (runss to the counter ask them to translate for me remember and then run back to the customer!) dont you laugh! i'm bad.

unbelievable

maybe you have lots of admirererss. with just that pretty face and that 'act-cool' friendly character of yours, attracts the many other girls in wanting to be your friend and having a crushes on you or as an eye-candy. WTF. BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I actually believe you that you likED me. am I stoopit or am I just dumb? OH WAIT! they're both the same thing! alrightt. I'm both.{FOOK! I admitted. what have you turn me to?} Out of the others I know(guys-duh), you're the one that seriously change me. I'm not what you see me as. I'm the total opposite of what you think I am.(wait!! do you even know who I am?)
I dont know how and why I like you. you and I we're the opposites of each other! we have NOTHING in common! and you're not what I expect you to be but I still do like you.
"the opposites attract"-what a cliche
I know I'm bothersome all the time, msging you all the time, redundant stuff cause I want you to know that even if we cant get together or wil NEVER be together we're still friends. if you think I like my eye-candy YOU'RE CRAsY! I don't.
boy. I know emo's cool and 'in' now. but by not talking things out its bad! I know you dont want to talk it out thinking that how can mortals help you when are the ones that HURT you. if you dont help yourself who can and you'll never heal and open up to the new things.
you may say, "joy.. its not as easy as you think it is and YOU DONT KNOW ME." I know I dont cause you wont let me. And I still dont know why you cant treat me as a friend? and think that we must be in a relationship? I DONT WANT TO BE WITH YOU!
lets stay as friends.forever!
I dont mind you calling me dear(as a FRIEND), sweetie(as a FRIEND), pretty(as a FRIEND), baby(as a FRIEND), etc... WHATEVER as a friend... as long as we stay friends. so that you know you're not always the wall/rag-doll that people rant at when they need you and not there when you need them. and please don't treat me like them.
my friend. ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRD-DAY TO YOU ! ! !
to: CANDY jie-jie -my jiejie in law. loves!!!!
<3s!!!!!!
& ADAM! -man, although I dont know ya that well but still its nice to wish you back when you wished me on mine! ((:

BLOGGER!

dad asked about blogger.
"what is blogger?" he asked.
"huh. I don't know. some sort like an online 'diary' but NOT." I said.
"so... what is it?" he asked again...
"where people write stuffs about themselves?" I said again.
"O! anonymously?"
"or what?" "everybody write in the same page?"
"who goes and see?" he continued.....
answrg evry single ques.
then he said " CAN I HAVE ONE TOO?? "
O_O! <------------ + ;p :O hahhahahhahahhahahhah {moi reaction}
I freaked and said what for and he answered so I can write also la.

my goshh.. coolness BUT disgusting!!! imagine your house's OLD MAN rants about his daily 'to dos' and stuff. and you read it everyday!