I think I did it again.. ..

I smoked again.
don't ask why I did it but yes I did it again.
the feeling isn't good
it sucks! BIG TIME.
its been consecutively three full days.
my friends hurt to see me like that ..
I'm sorry.
There's too many things
the others may have said it that smoking solves all problem and it gives that sensation that somehow "cures" everything.
MAN! BULLSHIT! ! !
it kills you ! ! ! ! it may have a cooling sensation(cause its menthol) and to see the smoke come out trying to do funny shapes with it and blah. . .
AND IT STINKS!
I know I'm somehow now contradicting.
Its funny that I contradict myself BUT when I do it. I will tell the others DON't YOU PUFF IT IN MY FACE ! ! ! Or ... I'll kill you and there I'll go.. screaming...
and I feel that there's definitely something about you in every of my posts.
I know I promised you and stuff and i told you that I wouldn't do it but I now assure you again that I will not be addicted to it and I'll stop..lu.
__________________________________________________
BACK to THE BORING LIFE..
>>>>> Today is just another day that I'm living by, being afraid of dying and getting killed.
Woke up early this morning PULLED out of bed to help mom with the housework (as the domestic helper contract's over!) BUT lazy as I am I didn't bother her yakking and continued to snooze, WHAT A PIG I know! (and an unfilial daughter) eventually I was threaten! MOM: "YOU BETTER WAKE UP OR ELSE YOU'LL HAVE TO WALK OUT YOURSELF AND GET YOUR OWN LUNCH! WE'RE LEAVING WITHOUT YOU! ! ! " Man! I was literally reluctant. I PULLED myself out of bed and DRAGGED myself to the TOILET!!!!! TO MY SURPRISE! ! ! (ha ha I won't blog about it! ask me if you're THAT k-PO!)
bro. took the CAR! so we're left with the POK POK van!
I was the "goods" for the day as a VAN can only take ONE freaking passenger! and
if more.. MAN YOU GO BEHIND! (if I knew that I wouldn't wake up!)
It SURE WAS A BUMPY RIDE! ! ! brvoomm oom ommomm nah!... ITS BOOM BOOM BOOM ! (OUCH! my backside hurts!) and the freaking radio is SPOILT!
so I took out my mP3 and sat there like a mannequin ! turn and move as how the vehicle is moving... like a fish in a plastic bag ON THE WAY "home" !
lunched at ADAM's FOOD CENTRE. Nasi Lemak.
TUITION after that .
was picked up by Darryl [sp?] (i think) MAN! cause he just got he's license!
and he drove this car.. HAH HAR HA!!!
IT FREAKING SMALL! AND ADORABLE!!!!!
ITS SHORTER THAN ME!!! (don't laugh and get shock!)
AND ITS SMALLER THAN A MINI COOPER!! and ITS ATTENTION SEEKING!!
SO... IF YOU SEE THIS CAR THATS REALLY SMALL AND A GUY(somehow bald) IS DRIVING IT HAHA THATS DARRYL!!
as I said its ATTENTION SEEKING! many people were looking in and stuff
and some even waved! haha so MAN and I we crazily WAVED back.
I sat in front.
So I was like can I drive? (haha..)
and
he's like err.. BUT you can help me change gear!!
THEN I was like OK!
he's like do you know how??
then I was like YA I THINK!
(man behind was like Darryl NO I don't wanna die so young!)
he then was like.. OK! 4th gear
I.. AHH ok!
then he's like GOOD!
((:
(and Amanda was like man! you can change gear!)
then he's like 3rd gear!
I was like HUH?? WHERE!!!!! HOW!?!?!
and HE's LIKE EH!! AHH (and shifts gear!)
(and MAN was. MAN! you're NOT touching that thing again!)
and I was like OPPS! SORRY I forgot where's the 3rd! can I do it again?
DARRYL : "NO! NOT this time NEXT time maybe! "
HAH HA sorry.. *grinsss ((:
so he sent us town .. and then chilled with us for a while at B.K(Liat Towers) my new hang-out.
soon after he left and blah.. somehow productive but not.. had those cig breaks.
I feel like those CJ guys now. DARN! F**K!
They haven't been there for a long time already..
and all the jalan jalans and all those lets go and chill and defrost ourselves
from the freezyy B.K
.... rah, man and I we had dinner at Food Republic's Jap food!
Yums yum! we actually wanted to go to sakae sushi at wheelock.
BUT! ! ! we guessed that its going to be a LONG QUEUE!!! and they didnt allow reservations!
WTF! its alright.. then we wanted to go to wisma's jap restaurant Ichiban Boshi (if I'm not wrong) the one next to TOPSHOP and Surfbabe. ( alright in between)
so we headed off to Food Republic. Koh's Jap..... bla bla.. ..
GOOD yumms
then when we headed back man and I didn't have the mood already so we walked around the vicinity.. while rah help jia man with her English.. (her responsibility[she claims])
so headed to BORDERS!! whee
and I saw Mitch Albom's NEW BOOK!
F**k! I so want it! BUT Books ARE REALLY EXPENSIVE!!!!
its somehow about this guy Charley that chooses his path.. and wants to change it.. a ghost cum life story... interesting SOMEHOW! (hard to hear me say a book s interesting!) BUT all Mitch Albom's books are really REALLY meaningful ! ! !
especially Tuesdays With Morrie. you can tear at the part when Morrie is about to die.
BUT I didn't tear. There're many morals in that book! you can GO GET IT!!
The Five People You Meet In Heaven ! by him is also good. about how a person once thought that he's life is meaningless and does the same thing every single day until.. when he saves a life he dies and before he reaches heaven he meet this 5 people that actually left an indelible mark in his life.
GOOD BOOK!
I had a STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE Blizzard TODAY!!
left at about 9+
sent J.M to the bus stop.. then we funked out the I.D photo machine!
LOLS. fun fun. imagine 3 people !
ONE SMALL TWO CHUBBY!
squeezing into the tiny cubicle! MAN I was claustrophobic!
so eventually our head managed to SQUEEZE in the shape UGLY-ly..
LOLS...
then we CHOO CHOO-ed HOME!
walked home I didn't know that everybody was at home.
all the vehicles were at home! AND..
I surprisingly didn't call and WALKed HOME!!
not taking a CAB but a BUS!

it MAKES one but BREAKS the other and no one bothers

rightoees.
the "NERD" is somehow back.
back here blogging.
when you people actually bother to read.
went to B.K then to macs then BACK to B.K
physics all day.
down.

alright..
what I promised Sandra!!!
girl you're wonderful.. and known you for a long long time too.though you're all so CHATTY and LOUD at timess( ALRIGHT! ALL THE TIME!) and at time PMSyy .. and thats pretty SCARY!! alright ITS REALLY SCARY!!!!! but you're somewhat sweet and I love you loads too. <3!

the taste is still within my mouth

why why WON'T YOU JUST TELL ME!
alright I dont feel like bloggging now..
was actually In a long long time ago..
and then I've decided to blog surf.(is that what you call it?)
somehow I was signed in at 9:42pm.
but now its like 10:18.
and I just received a message from zhi xian..
and I just felt like writing messages to EVERYBODY!
lols..


zhi xian:
hey dear.. you're like my best best. lols. I don't know if you know what I'm meaning.. haha BUT I'm just trying to say THANK YOU! you've been like my encourager and somehow my motivator. I'm your listening EAR and you're mine too. I'm your Q&A board about your "girls" (HAHA) and you comfort me about stuffs. I'm really glad you're there and EXSISTED in my world. though we are busy with our STUDIES and stuffs.. you still make sure that I study and knowing that I'm worried for N's you tell me that I'm going to make it and I CAN DO IT!! those motivations have kept me strong. love love TAKE CARE <3s!

sarah:
I just realise that all that I've been blogging about you.. is what we do together and the times I've spent with you.. all the crazy stuffs we do. RAH ! I heart heart you! I don't know what I'll do without you!!! You're like always there when I needed you.. GIVING ME REAL REAL GOOD ADVICE!!!! although at times I'm all SO stubborn and don't listen and eventually you'll have to hear me yank LONGER.. haha I maybe a PAIN IN THE ASS to YOU!!!! BUT I HOPE YOU'LL SURVIVE WITH ME ALL THROUGH!!! I WANT TO BE FRIENDS FOREVER!! even if you go to aussie and stuff DON'T FORGET VAN & I!!!!! RAH.. I don't know what esle to say. THERE's TOO MANY!!!!!! even if I'm not a person that is able to console you and comfort you cause you know.. that's my weakness..( x ) BUT I'm trying to ... GOD is making that my gift!! LOLs. BUT I still can listen!! I DIG my EAR!!! I may..give you advice but not as GOOD as yours.. BARE WITH ME!!! till I die... LOVE A GALAXY!!! <3.<3.<3>

VAN(bestttyy) :
I don't know if this will ever change..although now we may not have been the closest of all close BUT we're still BESTssss THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE.. Its just that our characters collide at times. BUT WHO CARES!! and although we may not know all the FIRST hand info of each other..cause of STUDIES FIRST!! and you and your MATHS!!!! (must really hang out ONE FINE DAY!!) but we still kow about each other's life.. TODAY!(28/09/06) I'm really HAPPY! cause I finally get to talk to you in PERSON and tell YOU EVERYTHING you've MISSED.. You may not be GIVING GOOD ADVICE OR BEING A GOOD listening EAR! but I know you're in my life for a CERTAIN PURPOSE!!! and you've brought many changes...(man! I think I'm going to tear!) AND YOU'RE WORTH EVERY SINGLE TEAR!!! I LOVE YOU HEAPS!! and ALLL THE PLANETS IN THE GALAXY!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3!!!>

tabb :
MY FRIEND FOR A soon FULL 9 YEARS!!!! you're MUCH appreciated!! and treasured!! although you PUT that U.G.L.Y sleeping PHOTO of me IN YOUR BLOG!!! haha.. We may not have been there for each other through thick and thin.. cause of your school transfer and stufff.. BUT I think we've been there for each other SPIRITUALLY!! haha I MISS al those SLEEPOVERs at MY PLACE and FUN we use to have swimming and EATING as usual for me.. lols.. ALL those Mid-NIGHT snacks we sneak out in the night downstairs discreetly eating CUP NOODLES!! haha.. (although downstairs is still IN the house LOLs) I miss all those.. and WE're STILL NOT TOO OLD for this kind of sleepovers... we can invite EVERYBODY this time or maybe travel together!!! I heart YOU many many ok... MUCH (not countable) LOLS.. ALL THE BEST MUGGING!!!!!! ! ! ! ! ! !! see you on STUDY-SUNDAYS! <3<3<3<3<3!!!

bay:
my ""cousin"" haha the "lOOK-alike" and now you're becoming more and more like me..LOLs. we've been through ALL THE CRAZY FUN together ! ! ! ALLL the LATE-NIGHTS together.. DROWNing our mysterios SORROWs together!!! the FUN in my LIFE! the one that never fails to make me SMILE!! and when we're together we're JUST NONSENSE!!!! although I can't stand your BAD mOOd SWINGS ALL THE TIME (dont ask me to sit on it!) I think I know how to handle it now.. and sometimes you cant stand my (OUR:van,rahandI) FRIENDS (I don't know why!!) and some you can bother to make friends with.. HAHA at times you''re just fun to be with BUT at time you're just in the PISSED MODE! lols... BUT no matter what I still lurrhhh YOU!
LOVEss and HEARTS!!! <3!!<3!!<3!!

benong:
ILU.
I really do. I don't know if you do. You may have said it before but..
sometimes I wish you're there but you're just not at times you just got to have your emotions going the right directions, the right way... Iwanttoknowthatyoucare.
<3.!


okayy..
I think thats all FOR now.. when I feel like continue-ing I will. HA HA..
sorry if your name is not said out.
I still <3 you you may not know you'll be in the next!
I LOVE y'll!!
ciao.

-joy://

MAN! this is what I just received. lols BIG LOLS!

CONGRATS!! Your phone has been installed with a new puzzle game. To play, just throw your phone against the wall and arrange the pieces back. It's fun! Try it! :-)

DO NOT!!! TRY THIS AT HOME !!!!!!
OH MAN!! its like WTF! I was actually quite silly! and retard at the same time. I was THINKING cool NEW GAME!!! but... how is it installed in without anything(like a transfer or something..) Then I continued reading.. To play... ... I was like HUH? BUT IT'LL SPOIL MY PHONE... HAHA and I was like.. OOoOoOOhhHH I see some monkeyss.!

the NERD in me!

STUDIED again... today
BUT instead of B.K today at MOS and McCafe.
with Jia Man and Sarah.
HA HAR HAH..
with this 2! woahh...
pOOf!
its JUST ... unproductive FOR ME!!
BUT I LOVE THEM
and with Jia Man..
EAT! EAT! EAT!
when she's SO SKINNY like a ROD!
and me FAT like a DUSTBIN!
Jia Man is really funny!! I lurrrhh her many many
and she makes fun of sarah too..
haha REALLY well! MAN!! WE CAN MAKE A TEAM.
going to B.K tmrw though..
anybody?? find me then... ((:

boy..I don't know how to tell you my feelings.that.you're the reason why i'm crying.you're the reason why my emotions are like that.I know its stupid to turn to you when its about you.I don't know what to do.I just wish that I can question you about everything and anything.and nothing will turn awkward.why am I so troubled when it comes to you? am I the weird one or you.I message all the time.I did the same today and there aint no replies.But only when I said to talk you just called and called.and then you care. why? why am I the one thats sharing my feelings with you.not that you have to.BUt you always say you will and I trust you in that.I'm still waiting.I don't know if its true BUT it seems that you have this other girl liking you.do i still have that space in your heart or its already taken up long time ago.I AM JUST AN INFACTUATION.I KNOW.Is there a recycle bin in me?I wish I was a computer.Just PRESS the DELETE! and I'll remind myself that I'm JOY with a :))

BRANDY -HAVE YOU EVER

Have You Ever?
Have ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so hard
You can't sleep at night
Have ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, Have you ever

Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so hard
You can't sleep at night
Have ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, Have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world 'Coz baby I can't sleep

DAH ZEN V PLUS! ! !

HAH HAR HA!! !
I finally got an mp3 player after all these years and all these time of my LIFE...
and ITS Hee HEE ;) A ZEN V PLUS!!! although the size is SMALL!
I'm still happy with it and sastified with it..
having a BIG BIG mp3 when you don't use up all the size and not able to hear up all the thousand over songs ... whats the use right???
((: so a 1GB mp3 is satisfactory for ME! :))
and I just realise it TAKES up 6 FREAKING HOURS!!!! TO CHARGE UP THE MP3!!!
darn IT!! I cant like use it NOW!!!!
an i'm like using dad's lappy TOP to transfer and charge and everything.
cause MY computer is SO lousy that IT cant install the CREATIVE CD.
so.... I used dad's com. THANK GOD! he did not scold me.
cause he uses the lap for work and stuff. and if i JAM up the com
or screw anything up in the com OoooOooOohh BOY! I'm SCREWED FOR LIFE!!!!!!
so DAD's alright with this.. haha I think he didnt realise that i've got a new MP3 or sth.
he's like ohh okok okok .. maybe cause he's SICK!
I LOVE MUMMY OOO AND DADDY OOO!!!
alright I think I'm really really busy with my NEW player..
AND I THANK GOD!!!
haha cause I asked rah and tab to pray before I went home..
I don't know if they did.. BUT I've got it WITHOUT and $$$ coming out from my POCKET!! and grandmama BLESSED me with $50 ! ! !
I really really LOVE GOD!!! He's really GOOD!!
it was really good to go back to church the other day..
God really told me that I am still His child.
He reminded me..
that i'm His little KID.
that will never changed in Him.
He will never abandon me..
He will never neglect me and will be with me every single day.
no matter how I act. God, always faithful..
((: Thank you for recharging the JOY in me.
________________________________________________
and rah.. ha har haa hah... I cabbed home just now.. I was lazy and tired..
I should show you guys the route I walk home ...
HOW DEEEEPPP and FAR!!!!
and TIRING!!! cause of the down and up slope..
and rah SORRY for the many posponing of SUPPER NIGHT!

TO LOVE THEM OR NOT?

LIFE'S SUCHA BITCH
friends??
defination?
according to the LONGMAN DICTIONARYYY
-FRIEND: someone that you know well and enjoy spending time with.
according to JOY
-FRIENDS: a person that is there for you ALL THE TIME and cares for you that listens to your joy and woes, tells you the truth, NO COMPETITION between each other, and TRUSTS you.
I seriously don't know what have the world change into?
What happen to you?
are you a true friend to me or a foe?
an ANGEL IN DISGUISE?
your mask will soon be OFF
MAN. Birds of the same feather flock together.
JJAVSS'd is somehow not "united"
missing of a 'J' and nothing can change that.
Cause you don't know what a person TRUELY WANTS!
I don't know what 'J' wants. I tried to befriend her but it seems that
she owns a different wavelength from us.
NO OFFENCE !!! $$ seems to fill her world and the MOST IMPORTANT to her.
We can't possibly phyc. her!
and FORCE her NO NO YOU CANT LEAVE OR ESLE.... ..
HAH HAR HA thats WEIRD & SCARY.
ok about 'J' is done. Period.
Back to the other.
Right.. I know I'm sounding like a Bitch. Bitching here.
This is the only way . It seems that No ONE understands how I feel in this point of view.
about that . That day I was really pissed with her over childish stuff.
And so .. I asked someone : "WHAT DOES SHE WANTS?? I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW."
someone then said: "HOW DO I KNOW? I THINK SHE WANTS EVERYTHING !"
and THOUGHTS FLEW THROUGH...
YES! THATS RIGHT! she wants everything.
I know she doesnt seem to sound pityful cause she doesnt need compassion.
but when she tell us stuff its alright with me cause its normal. I'm ALL EARS! and when you need an ADVICE I'm all BRAINS and MOUTH.
and by saying that NOTHING IS PERFECT NOBODY IS PERFECT ! !
she says that my family is PERFECT.
THANKS. I can say. BUT. You don't know.
and.. I really don't know about your background yet you're like a mystery.
Its really good that you have many admirers..and can mostly get whoever you want.
maybe cause of... ... maybe cause of.. ...
WHO KNOWS WHAT YOU're THINKING !
(someone PLEASE invent a brain reader)
saying someone is CHILDISH! ! Talk about yourself.
the KID way : "say people, say yourself! henggphh!"
lols. She's getting on my nerves these few days..
and I really don't know why is this so.
and like previously I said.
"birds of the same feathers flock together"
I see Best turning like her.

who's influencing who?
I don't know why best is embarrassed about things???
she's all "soft and quiet" and keeps everything to herself.
and ... the thing that irritates me is that.. ... whatever you say about her
she take its to heart and acts that way when she's not that .
SHE SHAPES HERSELF INTO WHAT PEOPLE SAY OF HER.
e.g hey you look nice in that hairstyle.
action: she'll always have that HAIRSTYLE!
and if you say her and she changes.. into a person that is NOT her at all.
ITS LIKE... I don't know how to tell her..
I've tried. and her answer will be like.
HUH? ok.. fine fine then I won't be like that! YOU SAY THIS YOU SAY THAT WHAT!!!
its not that!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and then I will not know how to explain to her anymore.
and NOW.. if I tell her you're SO NAIVE..
she'll like use the WORD NAIVE ALL THE TIME!!
IN ALLL SITUATIONS!!
""hahhaha. hee.hee ya yar I know they say I'm really naive..don't need to tell me""
or...
""YAR I KNOW !!! I'm NAIVE happy ! thats why I don't understand!! ! "
and THERE SHE GOES again.. FUME!!!!!!!!! and then quarell...
I know BEST thinks that we both KNOW each other really well..
BUT GIRL TIMES HAVE CHANGED!!
AND NOW THE TRUTH!!! (i know the TRUTH hurts the most! ...)
YOU NEED TO KNOW!
(please don't be so affected if you're trying to change ! SHOW it DON'T SAY it!!!!)
here it goes....
YOU SUCK! IN BEING A LISTENER!and you're a little SELFISH!! ((:
let people have their turn to TALK and sound sincere when they're talking.
DON'T ADAPT to your HABITAT! (get it...? ohhh NVM!)
GIRLS .... I'll LOVE y'll still NO MATTER WHAT.
I'll change to adapt to you(my friends) when you change I'll have to change too.
I've got to accept ! cause you're my friends.
God made it so! and I really LOVE you girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


guys are asses.
A treat/threat to girls.
devil/present to girls.
pannadol/tic-tac to girls.
I wonder..

BLOGGING.. SUCH A CHORE NOW.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK!!! <3s>
SHE'S BEING A BITCH.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS
JUST KNOW THAT .
LIFE IS SHORT;YOU CANT HAVE EVERYTHING.
but I still LOVE you for who you are.

studied till 8 today at Serene.
say I'm hardworking.. HAHA
not! somehow productive somehow NOT.
BUT.. I completed farming and wet rice today!!!
haha PROUD OF MYSELF!!
GOOD JOB joY!!
*patss back!
I met TABByy 2day!!! (lubb euu*)
we sat separate TABLES so its more productive
and it makes macs a more condusive place to study at.
lols. They ask WHY STUDY for N's??
I'll stare and o_O ! ! WHY NOT!!
and They say ITS EASY PEASYYY GO EAT SOME CHEESEYYs! !
ciao came home late cause the BUS was in a JAM along Macritchie(sp?)
it TOOK A FREAKING 30 MINS!!!! TO PASS IT ALL!!!
WTF! ! but I slept and i prolly guess that mand and tab were making fun of me
BUT I was seriously tired.. + exhausted..
anyway ciao.. gonna bathe!!!
love y'll <3>

joy have been studying ALL week.
had TUITION again today.
Swee Seng was incharge today.
so he's teaching us.. yep.
IT WAS REALLY FUN
haha cause we somehow "knew" him and kept on making fun of him
ghahah and that 'thought you'll never ask' person was there today
I cant remember his name. LOLs.
he's still as funny.
Daniel Lee was there too.
he said something really funny + weird to me today.
lols. goign to have tuition again on thursday.
and ... going to serene tomorrow! ! !
((: jia was like asking me why didn't I go today and she brought PICK UP STICKS!haha.
nvm. jia we'll PLAY tomorrow! I mean later! ! ! hahaha
anyway I am waiting for someone to finish he's macs
and then i'm OFF to SNOOZE OFF!!!
<3>

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

sins are meant to be made.

I'm LAZY to blog its such a chore now.. lol

Am I funny? Just ...
GREAT SENSE OF HUMOUR maybe...
HAHAHA ;)
is it so funny to just take POCKY from island.
ALRIGHT! its cheappolata..(cheapo)
and maybe cause I'm GREEDY..
BUT. arhhh nvm!
anyway Ill just BUY them from COLD (bwrrrr...)STORAGE!
HAH..
anyway there's this weird GIRL
working at the NEW jap rest.
WHY is she weird??
- SHE TALKS TO EVERYBODY AND ANYBODY SHE MEETS
(be it knowing them or not)
and JIA have been running away from her.. lols
and the Island Cremery girl too.
I've been studying at macs these few days..
sometimes its productive soemtimes it isn't
and when I'm listening to Jia's Mp3(yes I don't own one myself..pfft!)
I get really EMO.and i'll get really DISRACTED!
But tell me what can I do ?
don't tell me possibilities or what so ever.
Its really hard to get you out of my head.
Iloveyou if you ask I really do
It would have been a nice messaging conversation with you..
if you weren't drunk.
I don't know why.
I sometimes wonder.. WHY? why God made me love you?
is it a part of my plan in life?? hmphhh I DON'T KNOW!
I wish I knew. its weird that this liquid looking like water comes out from eye flowing like a river downstream. why?

What can I do, to make you mineFalling so hard so fast this timeWhat did I say, what did you do?How did I fall in love with you?I hear your voiceAnd I start to trembleBrings back the child that, I resembleI cannot pretend, that we can still be friendsDon't want to be,Alone tonight

EMO STUFF IN MY HEAD FOR YOUR HEAD..

DESTINY'S CHILD-BROWN EYES
Remember the first day
When I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
....
Remember the first day that you took me out
We had butterflies although we tried to hide it
....
The way you talked the way we laughed
It felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
...
And when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

GOOD CHARLOTTLE-EMOTIONLESS
Hey dad ***
I'm writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart
are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your sons?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if we're all right?
but we'reI'm all right
we'reI'm all right

[Chorus:]
it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that weI cried
you broke my mother's heart
you broke your children for life
it's not ok,but we'reI'm all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I'm writing just to let you know
I'm still alive

the days I spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
I was so angry
the scars run deep inside this tattooed body
there's things I'll take, to my grave
but I'm okay
I'm okay

[Chorus:]
it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that weI cried
you broke my mother's heart
you broke your children for life
it's not ok,but we'reI'm all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
yeah, I'm still alive

sometimes
I forgive
yeah and this time
I'll admit
that I miss you, said I miss you

[Chorus:]
it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that weI cried
you broke my mother's heart
you broke your children for life
it's not ok,but we'reI'm all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

and sometimes
I forgive
and this time
I'll admit, that I miss you, I miss you
hey dad ***.

CASSIE-ME&YOU
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about what I wanna do with you
.....
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
.... .....
I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready
I know what to do, if only you would let me
As long as you're cool with it, I'll treat you right
Here is where you wanna be
.. .... .... ....
Baby, I'll love you all the way down
Get cha right where you like it, I promise you'll like it (I swear)
Just relax and let me make that move (It's our secret thang)
Keep it between me and you
... ....
.... .....

SNOW PATROL-CHASING CARS
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
... .. ....
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
.. ....
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
.. .... ...
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

HINDER-LIPS OF AN ANGEL
Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you am I crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my cousin... the next room
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girlboy you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does heshe know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think shehe has a clue

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girlboy you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

AUGUSTANA-BOSTON
You don't know me, you don't even care,
She He said
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you

You don't know me, you don't even care,
She He said
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

She He said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,I think
I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
....
.. ... ...
...
...
I think that I'm you're just tired
I think I you need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I you need a sunrise, I'm you're tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...Boston...
where no one knows my name...

YUling needs a shoulder to cry on ... (in fact)

do you know how I feel? It just kills me inside that once you are all so.. and then you're totally another person after that. Its always that you have a problem and you always say you will tell me another time when you're alright. And that never happen. I know we ain't that close and you have closer friends and you don't know how to tell it to me. I really wish you'll put me in mind and not forget what you say. Sometimes I really don't know if you're true or not. When you mean it and when you don't. Have you ever? I don't know many things. I wish God will tip me and fill me in with all that I need to know. But it does not seem that HE is helping. What am I to do? my besty budds are not psychics! I JUST WANT TO LET YOU GO! But YOU KNOW WHAT? I can't! Its that I don't know how and I don't know what to do with you. When I try not to think of you, I realise I am.
<3 is the closest to me now.
and in future... if you just don't wanna go reply! It HURTS when I don't get a reply about this matters I rather get rejected than to live without a reply.

PARTY AT GASHAUS TONIGHT ! ! !

Free Tonight? 9th Sept.
Dj KOflow, champion DJ will be spinning all night
from 9pm to 4am
@ GasHaus.
COME PARTY!
$15 per entry (incl. 1FREE drink)
NO AGE LIMIT!
call/text if you want!
*98455591*

lets chase cars like how I chase MEH!

I was waken up BY mommy's LOUD teeevee and BRIGHT LIGHTS!
so PISSED!! I was rather Cranky!
TODAY.
I have tution again.. ... .
so will head off to lunch then to tuition.
most prolly will HEAD DOWN to the DURIAN to study today
manda want to get down to the BOOKS today!
hmmpfftthhh
anyway i'll have to one day or another.
MAN! she has more dicipline that me !
ONLY IN THE FORM OF STUDYING!
HAH HAR HA.. she's gonna KILL me when she reads this.
BUT gonna pool later or something.
MAN really needs A BREAK!
she's been studying ALL week!
and I... ... hmppphhh.. AHHAHAH
shopping..
anyway gonna head off soon.
tell you whats BORING later. lols

ghost whisperer. .. ...

went out with jie-jie -in-law.
she ahd her interview first.
so she left the house first
then... soon after I went to meet her in town.
She's really funny! I'm really GLAD that I got to know more about her today.
GREAT SMALLTALK!
we went out today was because I told her about the MEGA sa-LEH!
as she thought that what I bought yesterday was pretty CHEAP
ALRIGHT IT WAS EXTREMELY CHEAP!!!! ! ! ! ! !
So met up at Paragon.
She's really cute, funny and adorable!
HA HARH HAH.
we didn't know where to meet in Paragon.
so she's like lets meet at Mont Blanc.
and I was like where the hell is Mont Blanc. in Paragon.
she's like.. errr.. then where esle can we meet?
thats the only place I know.
hahaha. and she's like you know the Taxi Stand?
I was like oh okay.. and walked over.
then we walked over to Taka. for the SAH-LEH!
Today it wasn't that packed maybe cause it was about 4+
she picked out a few tops! and tried
and saw the SKIRTs.
SO she bought A TOP and 2SKIRTS! ((:
so after that we went to G2000 as she wanted to get MORE tops
for WORK! LOLS. she's really hilarious.
reached G2000 saw quite a lot of tops.
BUT and she bought 2 and reserved 2
as.... the reserved 2 has no NEW pieces.
the sales assistant called the other outlets but the outlets didn't pick up..
so.. she'll go down to the OTHER outlets to check it out.
if they had the TOPS she wanted.
SHE SPENT ... pooOf!
then we went to coffee club upstairs for DINNER!
already said about the nice chat!
GREAT CHAT!!! (again..)
then we trained. and she went to school..(night classes)
and I headed HOME! :))
as usual-Teeee-Veeee
alright...lets talk about the WEIRD fishy taxi UNCLE I encounted just now.
1.Taxi smells fishyy -DRIED FISH!
[to an extent I smelt through my BOOK!]
2.His wrist and arm seems apart.-Dislocated(the way he holds the wheel)
3.He POPs his head UP and DOWN looking into the mirror looking at me with that stare!
4.He can't see that well -BENDS FORWARD peering to see the ROAD!
5.He doesn't drive straight BUT zig-zaggy..
man. I thought it was funny at first BUT it started to turn scary!!!!
trying being his passenger! ! !
I was thinking in my head..WHY DIDN'T I TAKE THE CAB BEHIND?!
CHARMED was good! ! !
I'm like in a fettish for fruits these few days. HAH (right word? No.. right?)
I ate at least more that 5 fruits today and I'm not going to the LOO!
why?!?! humphhhfhhtt
9 O' clock show's ending wasn't good!!!!
so eeEEEeEeEEEeEe-RITATING!
then Ghost Whisperer MAN !! fantatstic as usual.
I SO lOVEEE that series!!!!
if they have DVDs for it I'LL BUY THEM!!!!!
its really interesting!! ! ! but it wasn't that freaky this episode.
the ghost bride was bitchy and selfish !
but eventually HAPPY ENDING! ((:
and now...
I'm going to play Ciao Bella!
I tell you guys! GO DOWNLOAD IT!!!!
you can find it at www.shockwave.com
its real FUN!!! hahha (for me at least!)
love! CIAO!

the SA-LEH was gOOD!!

THE SALE WAS FANTASTIC!
I bought a tube-TOP from WAREHOUSE
for just $19 !!!!
and a funny lOOking pants from TOPSHOP
for just $19 !!!!
and a pair of GREEN shoes! from TOPSHOP
for just $19 !!!!
IT SURE WAS CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP! ! !
I think I'm going again tomorrow! ((x
after sa-le shopping with Deanna, Van, Rah, Sand, Panida&B.F
Rah and I had our girlyy talk again.
and.. the "husband and wife" (Deanna and Van)
went to STUDY @ the DURIAN!!! haha
Sand, Panida&B.F left early from the SA-LE to play POOL
then during the SA-LEH. . . matt came along..
passed darll. the PHONE! man it SURE is NICE !!
matt is SO SO SO SO SO SO extremely SWEET to Deanna! ! !
but.. DEANNA YOU JUST DON'T CHERISH HIM ..
BUT its not your fault! I L<3ve>
spent about 2-3 HOURS in the SA-LEH!
Jeric then came to meet rah.. so we walked round wheelock
as HE was waiting for BEN!
Soon after we walk and talk ... ..
we STOOD outside starbucks
and then... rah's like ISN'T THAT BEN??
Jeric was like OH YAR.. alright THEN WE'LL go STUDY!
HAH HAR HA! (Ben was wearing his BikeTrail shirt! xD )
Then ...
Rah and I went to ZARA!
WhoOf-pOOf ! ! !
we spent like an hour in ZARA
then we went back to starbucks to say our CIAOs to Ben and Jeric
LOL. B&J
Jeric was somehow shock that we spent so MUCH time in ZARA
lols then went to BORDERS!!!!
SARAH'S HIDEOUT!
she JUST LOVE BOOKS and the smell of it too!
I just followed around nodding (mphhh..mmmhhphhh.arhhh.ya....!!)as I'm not a fan of BOOKs.
HA HAR HAH
then we parted as her mommy came!
suppose to be at her place to watch DVDs!
BUT I was TIRED!!
so here I am now.. BLOGGING!!
I <3>
.thoughyoudidntreplymymsgifyoudontwannayoushouldjusttellme.

this little girl is confused..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH//
I want to see you soon...
party at MOMo's tonight
anybody game for it?
van have been asking me to go.
And I'm confused if I want to.
There are soSO so many things that I want to do during this holidays!
BUT I don't know if I should just do it or not?
man.. and I have not studied!
Literally after the exams, the last two papers I didn't touch any books or anything. . .
should I start soon?
What am I to do?
anyway... I'm going out soon..
going for this BIG Sa-LE ! ! ! @ taka.
with TOPSHOP, TOPMAN, Karen Miller, Nike women, Dorthy Perkins, many More!!
so i'm going to chaooo NOW!
pom-pom then meet my loverr!! (rah rah) HEE.
p.d.n.s!hey girl i'm really sorry I didn't know that your relationship with him is on the rocks. I didn't know you mind me texting him. I feel really bad. But it was no biggy I just asked about some ???guy from his school. Chillax. take care.

the DEVIL wears PRADA? or... The ANGEL wears LV?

rightooe..
I LOVE AND ADORE the HOLIDAYssss
BUT without any cash$$ I don't...
without anywhere to go I don't...
without anybody to go out with I don't...
without anybody dating me I don't..(teeheehee)
BUT today. I thought that I won't be going anywhere...
but I went to watch a MooOo-Vie with sand
she called me after her school.. so..
BUT before that I didn't want to as I was quite lazy and tired.
SO I WENT TO SWIM!!!!!!!!
got a little TANNer! lols.
theres a tan line. ((:
:)) party at club MOMO tomorrow.
but i'm unsure if I want to go.
cause it wouldn't be fun if only a few of us go
so I am still deciding..
bokc-letsgoout! =]]

It's been awhile.. ...

its been long ever since I lasted blogged..
I want to blog the other past days
But I was rather tired.
so far///
2 papers down 6 more to go.. ...
SOCIAL STUDIES was a killer BEE!!
although whatever I studied came out.
SUDDENLY ! during the exam everything was BLANK
I didn't know what to do. I FREAKED!
BUT I still did Healthcare and Welfare State of Britain.
Q.(a) was the one I blanked out.
I barely wrote words.. I freaked.
I then continued to the next question
and ZOOMed like a ferrari !!!
I didn't had much time! and I haven't done my [10]marked question.
when I was halfway through my (b) the darn teacher made me worried
went to the mic and went "GIRLS YOU HAVE 15MINs LEFT"
I was like SHIT!! WTH WTF WTS!!!!
my hand CRAMPEd..
then when I was FINALLY done with my questions..
I didn't bother to even check!
I went back to question (a) and thought through..
NOTHING ! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING can be squeezed out!
I freaked and I had no time already.
The most I wrote was 5 lines! for a [7]mark question.
I know call me dumb!
to my surprise! I went out and I started CRYING!
so embarrassing! everybody was like why why you ok?
THANKS Y'LL lots of <3!!
the day before. THE CHINESE PAPER
wooohhoooo -phew -phew **wipes off sweat from my FOREHEAD**
it was somehow alright
anyway i am really tired now after creating darll's SKIN.lols.
love y'll *** i <3 you

PRETTY FLOWERS AT HOME..

WHAT DO YOU WANT???!!? >.<

ANGELINE!!!!

SOOOoOOoOO GOOS!

RANCID PINEAPPLES!!!! YUCK!

yuMMy!

REACTION!

LOOK !! ITS LITERALLY IN THE BOWL!!!!!!!!

PREPARING FOR THE BAD!

AUNTY PICKED IT UP FOR ME WITH A pink GLOVE!

SHE HELPED ME TURN ON THE TAP

SHE WAS ASKING ME TO USE SOAP

AUNTY WAS SOOOOOO NICE SHE TRIED TO HELP ME WASH

asking me to POSE

EGO-ing when I'm on the verge of breaking down picking the sunglasses from the TOILET BOWL!

WASHING.. ...

pOOR glaSSeS

SARAH'S TALLER??

... .... ...LOLS

NICE TOP!

AFTER A LONG TIRED DAY... BVROOM BVROOM POR POH HOME...

THANKS E175

FLOWER from E175

dont like this device

Sandra & I on the way OUT!

JOY HAD A BAD DAY!

sandra stayed over yesterday.
we slept at about 11+ and woke up at 1 to study!
HAHA.. I managed to wake up
MAN! it was SURE difficult to wake her up!
anyway I managed to study for 2 hours
then I couldn't take it anymore.
I bonked out went back to bed till 9 in the morn.
went for PENANG! Food Fare @ YORK Hotel
.. ...YUM YUMS... ..
ate lots of CUTTLEFISH haha
there were LOTS of FOOD thats GOOD!
like the Oyster Omelettle[sp?], KWAY TEOW SOUP!, Lor Bak, Char Kway Teow, PRAWN MEE!, PENANG! LAKSA, Rojak, Bang Chang Kway, Ice Kacang and Ice Chendol !!!!
hahahahha.. I know JOY you're SO SO SO FAT alreayd STILL EAT SO MUCH??!?
((: anyway they're all in SMALL portions.
so its alright.
after that went to THE ESPLANADE again.. ...
to STUDY.
met up with Sandra and Sayuri.
then Sarah came along. and we met Angeline Tanujaya[sp?]
so she STUDIED with us too.
She REALLY got a GREAT SENSE OF HUMOUR!!
then after that she stayed longer to study.
rah and I went to Marina for DINNER!!!!
ate Baked Rice and Pizza
we shared.. ...
Then received something weird..
the PIZZA!!! the PINEAPPLES were RANCID!!!!!!!!!!
its FIZZY SPOILT!!! and.. they say that their pineapples are FRESH everyday!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE HELL!!! anyway Rah and I ate BARELY 1 we SPIT it out!
We walked round Marina then..
something became WEIRDER!!
and I needed to PEE!
went to the LOO
and forgot ALL about my SHADES hanging down my vest.
SQUAT.. POOooOOoLoOOoT!
IT DROPPED INTO THE TOILET BOWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!*****( I SCREAMED!!! !)
Rah was like WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!!
I was like RAH HELP!!!!!!!!!!
I OPENED THE DOOR!!!!!! and the bowl FLUSHED(thank God there was no pee!)
I SCREAMED!!! I RAN OUT SCREAMING FOR THE AUNTY!!
ASKING HER IF SHE HAVE THAT KIAP KIAP THING..
SHE'S LIKE NO.. AND SHE TOOK OUT A GLOVE AND WENT TO HELP ME
PICK IT UP!!!! HAHAHA AWWWWWWW... SHE'S SO NICE!!!!!!!!!!!
THEN I WAS LIKE AUNTY XIE XIE.!! AUNTY ZHE ME BAN??? (translation:THANK YOU HOW AUNTY)THEN THE AUNTY WAS LIKE XI LA!(translation: WASH! LA) HUH.. OOK.. PRESSES SOAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UNTIL SHADES ALL COVERED IN SOAP!!!
AND WASHED!!
ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
if there wasnt that message I don't think I'll drop my SHADES!