Insanity

When will I ever be able to get you out of my head.
I hate to fall in love. I bet you'll have heard this before; It takes a second to fall in love but its takes forever to get out of love.
If you've never heard of this before, I will be the first to tell you this.
I hate to love. Hate to keep thinking of you.
I need a distraction, a distraction away from you.
Bokc. There is no word in the dictionary can describe you; maybe there is but I just don't know what it is.
Arghhh.. My anger just need to be vent out. Every time when we're close and I try to close the gap between us, you'll just walk out on me. Why? When I ask to know you more, you said that's not the way and you just won't tell me. You just won't put in any other effort. What is it that you want. There's nothing more that I can do. nothing... nothing... absolutely nothing...

How can I wish that I can look into your eyes and you will kiss me on my forehead, saying: "I love you."But for what I know love is a very hard thing to express. What more is it for me to ask you say it.

Do you believe in Valentine's Day? -its time to raise my white flag

HAPPY V-DAY !!! :HEART:
love is in the air and methane is the gas.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEENAAA!!!!!

Okay. I cannot deny that I disagree with Valentine's Day. Cause I use to be so excited about V-Day and I used to like go round town buying and making prezzies for my girls the day/week before V-Day. This year I guess I just couldn't care less. I THANK ALL in school that gave me prezzies and chocolates. I'm so SORRY I didn't get you people anything. LOVE! I guess now I don't really believe in V-Day. I don't know why, I guess this has got nothing to do with being older. May be the excitement is just not there anymore. I feel that this year everybody is getting excited and doing things that I am not interested in this year. WHATS UP WITH ME? (I want to go get another tattoo!) For example, the girls all want to go and participate in sports day(we don't even attend every year), I spoilt my record last year cause of Sayuri Poh! She made me go. I don't want to go this year and ALL want to! I thought of another thing just now but I think my memory is just failing;I can't remember.

Today, Valentine's Day is just like any other normal day to me. Everybody receiving flowers and gifts..blah.. Okay I received chocolates and some gifts too. But not as much as the other times. To admit how jealous I am when I see the others having pretty stalks of flowers even the 'unpopular' gets flowers!! To also see all the other girls carrying flowers on their way back from school and I nothing, not even a stalk in my hand to bring home this year but ALL the food in my bag. ): FATTS! But mommy loves me she cooked for me goodies((: I "laugh" MOMMY!

EVEN MY PARENTS !! They were in the mood of VALENTINE's this particular year! Dad bought a PHONE for momma. DARN! He was super duper cute and 'sweet' haha. He's my dad! So I shan't embarrass him on my blog which he will never read!! and know!!
[my parents business is for me to know and for the curious cats to find out. (; ]

Just came back from IKEA(Tampines). Bought stuffs funness.
A table specially for my GOLDFISH! haha.
and BRIGHT neon shower curtains;coolness.
Ate FATs! like MEATBALLS, CHICKEN WING, HOT DOG and ICE-CREAM.
Maybe its just a sign of relieving depression. ~whatever

P.S;I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU

AWAITING G.C'S NEW ALBUM TO BE RELEASE!!
Who will get it for me this time. Thanks J**F for the surprise the last time! I still have the box;)

1 WHY is not enough.

I just don't love you no more. (do I)

I don't even know what I am actually feeling.

Do you love me still?

HAVE YOU EVER?

Even if you didn't, did you feel my love for you.

Nobody can just explain the situation between us, maybe you can.

I can't.

Lost, broken, a missing piece.

Why?

Why do I confuse my feelings with the truth.

I know you ever had feelings for me;you told me that you had, can I trust those words. Why does my heart tell me that I can't, once I asked you just to reassure. You ask me if I'm doubting you. NO! I never did. Its just that a girl's heart leads her thinking astray. I just want to be your "911" being there when you need me. What did I do wrong that we turned out this way? WAIT. I'm the girl NOT the guy.

Things will never turn out the way I want it to be;when it comes to relationships.

God, thank you for this emo-soul of mine.

My poor old soul that is wrenching, feeling the fear of love. What turned me this way.

Will I ever still believe in love?

After it failed me that many times ...

God, if love is a word that is so great and indefinable, I can still find love in the dictionary.

What in the world do I deserve this? Am I not pretty enough. NO! That's lust already.

Why can't I feel the world

Tell me I'm not being paranoid

!!!WARNING: GIRLS DON'T LEARN TO BE AS EMO AS THE EMO-LAMMA, me...

you make me believe that LOVE HURTS.

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?