THERE!! paedophile for the day!! 

eventually van couldnt hold any longer!!! :O 

they were hand standing see who can hold the longest haha lol.. n sarah took the pic n i put my feel in whahaha:D:D 

van the EYE DIGGER! tt is how she always digs her eye!! IN n OUT! super gross as usual.. 

rachy,me n mandy slurping up strands!! 

the trios always together  

the pinketts-lol- EVERYBODY wore pink! 

jus took a pic.. jus the 5 of us 

blogging properly

booya all..blogging again today humphh yest
mom scolded me on the way back tts y i didnt had the mood to blog much
hee hee
i wasnt nauti but she jus scolded me boo-hoo-hoo
so i was down yest..aft tt much of fun!
we had loads of fun yest celebrating
dragon's n louisa's birthday
hee we went to mandy's hse to celebrate
she cooked spegettii(i cnat spell!) chickk-ken wingss & mash KENTANG!(potatoes)
whahaha her kentang had smiley bacon bits on it haha
we ate n ate n ate haha guess i put on lots yst haha
wondering who went??:me![jus was thr
van[thinking...still thinking tt its so far]
sarah[enjoying herself eventually got hell from her mom]
rachel[the single mom tt day]
louisa[acting lik a paedophile]but was her birthday so let her b(duh!)
amanda[mandy-host cum cook cum babysitter](DUH!)
zhiguo[faggy & jester as always]
the kids(all rachy's siblings):dragon[the birthday boy]
rebecca [the cantonese speaking wan]
renee[the wan louisa is attracted too haha]
ok we were very nauti we watched american pie haha
wondering WHAT ABT THE KIDS?!!?!
nah we definately didnt allow them to watch
haha so mandy fixed tt 9999999 games in 1 thing on the tv for them to play
hee hee thn the kids kept on asking us wht were we doing inside haha
thn zhiguo so bad n mean n so so so wrong haha
said tt we're having sme church meeting haha super funny n dumb tts y his my fag
haha anyway so we continued watching haha paedophile was horny haha tts super wrong
lol anyways so we jus watched la and the kids kept on knocking n asking wht were we doing
lol thn mandy didnt noe wht fag said thn said tt we're having sme private disscussions
haha thn knock again thn rachy or sme one esle said tt we're having sme girl talk thing haha
thn they were confused haha poor kids..
i'm lazy to blog alr..my dad jus shut down everything thn i didnt get to save the rest so.. its all being erased!! boo.. now i'm lazy!!
sigh wht is this world?!

i'm being attacked by

feeling lost
jus feel lik ending my life
although had a great day
it ended off bad )):
i really dont know what
is going on..

-ending off bye
lost confused

what happened today::

humphh ok today! we had FIRST AID course!
haha LOL so fun!!
i learned how to bandage myself haha my arm tt sling thing n if u haf a neck fracture
haf to use the other way to "wrap" it hee
so fun la!! i also learned CPR!forgotten the term OPPs!
anyways thn tt mouth to mouth thingyy haha LOLs.
fun n its really really NICE n GOOD to hug a manikin
haha LOLs u may think i'm stupid
but its TRUE!! okay i did it cos bearyy[my ex-husband(yes i'm les!)j.k]
told me tt its nice to hug it as its HUGGABLE!!
haha so i tired n guess wht?! ITS TRUE
haha i felt plain dumb though haha
i did lots of stupid things also i even stripped the manikin!or manequin!
haha n BLEW up its "lungs"
o i was the model! for bandaging the head!
lols..i told lynette to pick me haha lolss
fun! it looks lik a TURBAN!!!!!!!!!!!ahhh hahaha
so nice i didnt wan to take it out as i thihought tht it was nice
hhaha
but vanessa!she go n loosen it for me n eventually i took it out!!!boo-boo-boo
arhh truthfully first aid course was 'QuItE' fun!but introduction was BORING!
-o tody went for POS too!
there was rehersal
n it was a total MESS n was totally screwed up!
bryan fell while FLYING!poor thing everybody out thr PRAY for him okayss
we learnt oour mistakes today yeaa..
""wo men hui gai guo zhi xing de!""<-is it correct as in the right term if u noe wht i mean LOLS!
:):):)smiless feeling happy i thihnk!!!@
<3love to alll
MUAH!

long time ago//

hee hee
o!today went for tt youth concert thingy in sch haah
was fun jus okayy
all the dances are good n SUPER!nice
hee hee
o n AMANDA bought me an EEYORE!!! so adorable
sarah got a piglet van got an eeyore too
whahaha--dun noe y whn i'm not in s'pore everybody
is rich but whn i'm out w thm they're not haha
lol humphh i wonder lols
lik besty.fag he bought stuffss n paid everything for his date:(
n mandy bought tons n tons of stuffiess
but at least she thought of me!!!hee hee
bought me an eeyore so sweet !!
she lik bought everything for someone n didnt buy anything for herself so poor thing!
*pouts*but she was hell rich la HUMPHH!
anyways tired alr..love alls

got back papers today

sigh got back only
english,chinese,accounts and social studies!
lol.. i passed everything!!lol even CHINESE but failed
social studies--
lol..sad but my accounts is below my expectations..sighss
my target is to get FULL marks but i only got lik 48/50
humphh..yar thn tmr gna get back
maths-geog.-physics-chemistry
yar hee
hope i pass geog. haha haha
pouts**
o yar finally again i went for P.O.S[Parade Of Schools]
hee hee so fun as usual i think haha actually i learnt part of the dance alr
thn wif lots of my absence i didnt learn the rest but
i managed too absorb EVERYTHING!
haha lol.. jus haf to practise.. lol..
n thrs prac. tmr too..frm lik 5-7 thn 7-10:45
lol.. tiring lol..
^^^^^^^^^^
hey MR.i wasnt meaning tt i was trying to forget abt u its jus tt i
dont noe i dont noe how m i suppose to phrase it
its jus tt now u r wif ur baby so..yar
i really wished it was lik before
jus trying to forget everything is to ... ??!

my changed RGS uni!! haha 

played amazing race in sch today as post exam!.lol.

played amazing race:
OBJECTIVEs: teamwork
build up relationship
n SCORE points!
OBSTACLES!:we went to lik abt ermm abt 9 i think
-theres the fall thing!(the wan u suppose to trust each other tt wan)
-this "mastermind" thingy (looks lik a twister mat thn u suppose to go frm colour 2 colour lik how u play master mind n ur team mentor to say lik yes or no)
-thn we went to..THE SPACE! lol. its this Q&A game(read every INFO on the walls thn go n ans 4 ques SUPER easy!thn if all is correct thn u'll get extra points)ya..
-thn the shape shape thing go under this ""TUNNEL""( blindfolded fing ur own shape n form a word to form a word n get diff shapes to get EXTRA points!)
-NEXT!...trolley!! transporting!! (we've got this push push trolley thn a rope frm tis pillar to the other haha thn got to pull n transport n transport once u've got 10 pple over u got 20pnts evry 10 peeps 20pnts!)
-aft tt --we went for scavenger hunt look for stuffs on the list!
-thn the chair chair thing (hope u noe wht i mean)
-to the DANCE studio!we're suppose to see a video n dance alonggg .lol. n guess wht we've got HI5!L.O.V.E!!
haha-funny-dumb-our team mentor danced w us too cos we requested!-lol
-thn to the TOP!conecting the BODIESS! lol we've gt to pick the few cards thn connect w all tt body parts thn we win HAHA!.lol.

-yar tts all although we didnt win n
i was quite sad as it was a class winning
nt a grp winning thing but i'm happy too!
cos i enjoyed myself!


thn when on my way hme on the but thr was the yan yan ADV.!so i felt lik eating it.. so went to the mar mar shop n bought thn saw uncle JEFF so he fetched me hme thn my cous came over too haha thn we change UNI!(posted below!)haha lol..we're jus WU-LIAO!cos we lik went rnd our estate taking pics of oursleves in our diff UNIs! haha looking diff my UNI was too short n hers was too BIG n LONG for me.. haha
--
sighh i miss
the eee-dot donkey eating cookie
i tried all means to forget abt him
but guess wht he msg.d me on SUN!
P.T.L
n now he's missing agan how m i suppose to
forget abt him sigh sigh sigh
:(pouts

MARKING day

today is marking day lolss
so i'm lik worrying wht is gna happen to my papers lol..
how m i gna score haha
lol
lol
anyway chiaoss
gtg go out now/... LATE ALR!
:D:D

dont feel lik blogging
jeff msg.d me
i dun noe y he jus wanna check on me
lol
tts wht he said but ..
i dun feel lik telling him anything
he's lost wtver thing i've put in him alr
lol haha
i dont even think he really cares
haha
anyway if ure reading this
i'll try to tell u whts happening haha
but i nth ...
nvm hee love u
ALL!

now staying over at van's hsee..

lol.. now over at my besties hse usin her commy lol..
so fun la lik partee all day n all night lol.. whee
as uasual we went to HARBOURFONT again haha
but i was lik super GUAI today hee hee i didnt drink cos
i felt HOLY HOLY monkee lol funny hee hee but we lik played
TRUTH & DARE---
lol.. so dumb la i haf to kiss sarah lips to lip!!ARHGG she's gotten my first kiss haha LOL
cant believe i kissed her haha
anyways who cares la its lik jus a game lol
thn i also kissed van's chest haha LOL
thn amanda kissed my ASS! haha super funny
cant believe we're lik so dumb!
always do stupid thingss.. hha n O!"
zhiguo ate cuttlefish from van's feet! haha super gross!
hee hee
anyways ya gtg n EAT makan makan
blog more tmr..
nights all tata chaios!
LOVE to ALL!

my life is lik a facade-

i'm lik a flower quickly fading
come today and gone tomorrow
wondering why i'm in this earth
i've been trying to fade away,i shouldnt
be fading away,its tht i
shouldnt even be exsisting
and i could save a space in this
FREAKin' world and give it to someone
esle that is more useful
and purposeful i noe you will
say that God has made this
plan for you so jus treasure
and live it on as He has
EVERYTHING planned SO
this miserable part of my life
is planned supposedly
to be good.WOW!then
i'm super duper really
glad that i'm feeling
so miserable ot of the blue
do not know why i am lik that.I need
somebody to help me is it u?!
but i do not really contact u anymore
as there are alot of ups and downs bwt
us thats y i think that we are not
meant to be together BUT i
miss you to the depth of the earth
i really wish i could go all the wayback in time
and retrace all the good and bad memories we had
together and wtver we've done callin' each other
wierd names thjinking
of each other everysingle day
nvr fail to
msg each other and when i'm angry
with u u will try all means to get
meback and make me happy
again and always say'n all the sweet stuffs
to me.But when i realised and
found out abt ur friend as bwt tt week
i was super angry with u
and i went n read ur blog
you said the same things of wht u said
whn i read it

my PURPLE-pinkyy DAISY!! 

have been a long time since i blogged!! BUT TODAY IS A MUST BLOG!!

gosh gosh gosh!!!
haha i mus blog today cos cos cos
i SAW clar TODAYY!! arhhh so happie!
she's lik my bestest BUD la!
thn lik its been along time ever since i've seen her
cos of lik my exams studies n everything esle n
she's lik not in church anymore..so..BUT
although we're not in the same church anymore
she's still attending church i think guess so.. HAHA
n guess wht she's in FENCING now in her J.C
and whn i saw her today she carrying a green crumpler too!
ahh so cool! n fun! ahh but its lik different design whahaha
i'm so HAPPY! larhh saw her today tht day lik suppose
to meet her n shop thn i've got lik a lunch thingy so didnt go(SAD)
BuT so happie today !!! !!! !!! saw her we're lik as MAD as EVER
screamin' lik ahhh
she called joy so i turned lik who called me
thn i was AHHHHHH clar!!!!she's lik AHHHHHH too
thn we're hey gtg hme n lik y r u here n everything n i was still MAD
aft tht amanda was lik OOoOoOk i DO NOT noe u anymore HAHA
i totally *TOTALLY* went siao!!lol so happy!
ok now abt today since i bloggeedd haha
TODAY!
not only did i see clar haha but we went to
Holland Village(H.V)Burger King(B.K)and studddieieee today hee hee
cos lik rach she's got tuition!! wif SENIOR!
so we jus went w her haha BUT i lik taught her too n i realised tht
i'm a GOOD teacher too
hee hee (*egO*)whahaha
yar thn amanda she was angry la cant say wht happened to her ltr pple noe..
hee its a MiMi**whaha yar so she ate subway today again!!haha i ate cOOOkkkkiEEeee
again
NiCE!
love the cookies thr lol..
thn we shopped although i've 2papers(geog.&mathsP1) tmr!
hee hee
O M Goodness! at H.V the stuffs thr are jus SUPER!!
n nice n creative i love it all i'm gna save haha thn bring all my money thr
AND buy whatever i think its nice n store up all my accessories!! hee so fUN!
and guess wht its lik we've plan on wht we're gna do aft the exams alr so much
fun cant wait till the exams end!
n there comes
FUN FUN FUN!
haha i'm jus simply MADD today cos i saw clar**
anyways thn i bought OKAY amanda bought me a PURPLE!(i think)daisy flowerr
haha
i'm gna last it n keep it for over a week again
*NOT LIKE SOMEBODY CAN'T EVEN KEEP IT FOR 3 DAYS!lol**
so nice la!
gna post the flower ltr hee
so i think thts all 'm gna post today so whoever reads pls PLEASE pray for me!!
kaes??
TY!
LOVE MUAH TOO ALL!

3papers down 5more to go!(i think..ya)

lol.. eng social studies and chinese is bang bang bang DOWN!
i've left with maths accounts geog. chem & physics
sigh i dun noe if i'm gna do well
es.my chinese.haha
anyways i dun noe how to study for the rest feeling so cocked up!
haha.i think i'll jus do all the questions in the 10yr series.lol
for accounts will jus rem all the formats..lol
anywya 5thMAY'05 yest.hee was bay's birthday haha
we wanted to celebrate her b'dae but nobody told her we;re gna celebrate it
so she didnt wait for us we thought tt she did it delibrately..haha..lol
she went to Chloe's hse
yarhh and chloe they'll celebrated for her heess
bought her coffee cake..and she told me tt her mom wasnt free
so her mom jus bought her a cake n light a candle for her n played a b'dae song for her
and left the house.. i was lik o no so poor thing.sighs.
anyway today i'm HAPPY!
i went shopping with my mommy!! haha
she bought me stuff n we walked rnd town i'm feeling super HAPPY! as
we havent been shooping these few timess.SO.jus
felt so HAPPY!
we bth went to eat the hyatt buffet at the straits kitchen
HAHA we ate until we're lik oh no we cant walk back to the car
although we didnt eat everything thr totally fully but wee're lik
ARGH stomach too bloated n my mom is planning on going on a diet
the following week haha
as it MOTHER's day she's got lots of treat haha n she's gna eat consistently these 3 days
haha poor mamma bt so "xing fu" haha bt if she haf a treat once every week its fine but not 3 consequen days haha
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anyways lastly i wanna say hey srry jus went to ur blog n read
i do not noe if u r happy or sad but
jus rem kaes
tt i'm always by ur side wherever u go jus as long as u find me ok?! love!
this implies to EVERYBODY jus as long as u need me..
hugs!muah

arhh thr is cheena EXAM tmr!
i really do not noe how i'm gna fair;
having the phobia of failing''

i really do not know whats going on
can somebody HEAR ME OUT!

On this boring labour day all I do is stay at home having nothing to do facing all the four walls;as usual the plain old four walls I have nothing to do, nobody to speak too, nobody is caring, nobody wants to know whats happening to me. I'm that girl that is just going through each day thinking I'm just living by the days cause I have to. I do not feel what I use to feel, none that I actually longed for. When everybody got it and understands why they're here for, I still, do not know. I just do not know. Can sombody realise that I exist? Quick. And please tell me what am I doing here on this planet Earth. I feel I'm just a girl in this world that puts a mask on in whatever things I do. And keeps on thinking what will people think of me. How can I be my usual self? Tell me why am I doing this to myself ...

cheers! 

jus to relieve my depression! 

we're all lik red MONKEYYs...lol.. 

i was so depressed tht i went n drink last night lol..we did really really stupid things...lol..we bought drinks from cheers at harbourfont ya..thn we went to keppel building n drink lol.. as there is a big area thr so we jus sat thr n talked n everything esle..LOL..thn we did stupid stuffs..some breakdance n some dance lol..super funny..thn we went super super hyper la...so we decided to play catching lol.. but in the end we turned super super red..i felt really stupid!
_____________________________________________________________________
o i've finally realised..things lots of things..sigh
i thank you for jus telling me the truth i really think ure telling me the truth(hope so)and how u feel and everything but...ya
anyways hope we can go back to wht was lik before