i've been trying to smile i want to be back to the joyous me

i cant so describe how i'm feeling deep inside
but i know that its broken
really cant jus feel anything anymore
i wont blame you
DEpREssED..

tanning day! 

the day before + yst + today

yest.i had naffa! THE 2.4 RUN!!! arhh
*fats*fats*fats cried out..lol..
BUT i PASSED!!whahaha so happy larss
but timing depproved thoughh lst yr i had 15:sth mins BUT this yr had 16:43mins..
SIGH SIGH SIGH-so jealous of vanessa she had lik 14:sth so good hee hee
but was okay la felt super n even more hyper aft the run but i stunk!!(smelly!smelly!)lol..
as i think my spoilt n torn shoes cause my biggy toes(bth sides)to haf BLISTERS! ahh so i walked rnd sch barefooted!!hee-hee i noe its sick!as my feet was lik BLACK n even BLACKER i can even compare the colours to the skin tht of an banglah!lol (mean racist me) sorry a lil racist but its all influencial!!
oOoOo-the day before-i ate SUBWAY too too lol lol.. NIcE at shaws.. and thr are this 2 pple they looked lik guys but eventually they are girls(bungs!)..we didnt noe they lik haf been following us n peeing n spying on us HOW UNSIGHTLY pls we're girls too?!?!?! and thn tis girl acne all over(nt criticizing!(:-)threw her receipt i think trying to aim at our table BUT fell on the ground so she came laughing over n bent dwn n get it n did stupid this rnd shaws(lido) and eventually whn they wanted to go they put the "receipt" cum msg on our table and RAN ran RUN away!!!.lol. so freaky BUT funny::hahaha::so we opened it and it stated (if i have not forgot) "hi!can we be friends? can! Z*N(num)" yar tts it lol.. thn we laughed all over it n blah blah..lol..thn they came back standing n laughing n wispered ard thn tt acne wan voice is super super soft la asked my friend la whether can b friends and wan to treat her drink n everything but EVENTUALLY "she" was rejected!!.lol.ya
hee-hee
O YST!!i went to church aft sch for parade of schools(POS)hee hee so fun la we learnt tt dance step thingy thingy so faggy but it was super fun la..as in lik the dance steps are lik so 'gu niang' amanda thinks it GAY GAY GAY lol.. but its okay lol lol... but the steps are a lil diff. and complicating too q.diff to remember.. i always forget!!hee hee and yest while doing it pascale went BONK! lol loll super funny la we all did lik stupid things and everything van was light so she was a flyer!lol..so high n dangerous n scaryy haha but guess the girls jus haf to trust the bros in catching thm and everything ... o o and zhi guo cos he's a faggotyy small fly and can b a base so with his tupid breakdancin' doing it out of no reason..so he was in charge of break dancin' whn he's not good n suppose to teach the others how to break it.. LOL LOL..he's calling DUN NOE>>
thn abt today studied until 7 at serene la!!social studies hai sighsss
--speechless alr la..
o msg.d him yst he went shopping fun for him..i didnt haf the mood for anything yst cos of him n he doesnt noe anything only my "darll"papa also dun noe besty also dun noe..he's always lik tt i dun y i cant forget abt him..its jst always him him and him jus cant concentrate on anything...sigh n b'cos of him on sunday i cried to slp..HAHAHA funny n stupid la.. anyway nobody cared!!--hee hee--
anyways tts all back to studying(i think!)
LOVE LOVE lots!

beautiful to me

i dont know if i m the one for u in this life
i can't help hearing my voice calling ur name
cos whn i trying so hard not to look in ur eyes
maybe i have fallen in love with you
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..i can't so describe how i m feeling deep inside
so much more tt i can say with your touch and feel so right
oh my you are so near all the time
in this place for you are now in my heart
i will never let u go in this life time...
do u know why
oh baby cos ure jus so beautiful to me..
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well tonight
baby the sound that i can hear you breathe
its alive to see you smile with those tears in your eyes
they may say that you're just a girl in this spinning world
in my heart you're like a world to me..
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..i can't so describe how i m feeling deep inside
so much more tt i can say with your touch and feel so right
oh my you are so near all the time
in this place for you are now in my heart
i will never let u go in this life time...
do u noe i why
oh baby cos ure jus so beautiful to me..
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touch my hand
feel my heart
hold me close n you'll find me
you'll find me
so beautiful to me...

yest!!

i went for shane's and joseph's birthday they are bth amanda.b's cous la.. LOL ate and see thm played tennis..lol.. and found out tt their family is super super funny!!!and joseph isnt tt gay as amanda said so..SHANE is SO SO SO SO adorable..hee hee he's only TWO(2) whahaha...thn he always go go mumm mum go go mumm muumm..lol.. ARHH o we bought him a BARNEYY!!yar..lol..
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o thn aft tt we took a cab and thn the uncle CHEATED us!cos he thought tt we're very rich as he picked us up from loyang valley!lol thn bring us tour singapore wht is this...ANGRY!he cheat my money
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wanted to play pool BUT idiot Z.G he pang seh me go n booze! and moon tan ! freaking idiot lo.. lol.lol.lol.go palawan beach didnt call me la .. ):
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o i also knew tt my "papa" is dun noe wht boys sea games thingy champ la!! for high jump la!! wht the la freaking cool.. lol.. so proud of him lol.lol..
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o i've got nth to blog today..
yar jus wanna say failed chinese again..when he passed chinese..
who cares la
just feeling sad
these few dayss..

f*ck

i dont noe whts with u and ur friend!
but okay thn lets stop visiting each others blog..
u visited mine too so whts ur problem wha i dun wan to create a fight okay??!

~today~

lol..these are the flowers we bought for Mr.chan lol.. why did we buy it for him lol.. cos we made him angry..and he almost cried as he was scolding us so poor thing right??lol.. we're so bad n mean..we naughty girls..cos we ate n used handphones only la not so bad but he say we've got no integrity hai ya cos of tt prefect la 'pao toh' us hai ya dun care la..anyway so we felt guilty n thise who didnt stand up and admit felt even more guilty so we shared n thought of buying flowers and writing a sorry card or something to him so we've got FLOWERs !! for him hope he'll understand la.. lol.. o i bought a shirt too from ZARA hee hee super cheap la $11.90 only heeh heeh supwe cheap and nice lol.. love it so much i think lol lol.. cos might b its jus green..O!suppose to be going for P.O.S but didnt go i think mom is angry with me haii o tot of going n play pool too...hope he date me again..lol.. funny j.k j.k anyway off now...

if u say so

he thinks its tt way too..so let it b wat he lied so wht can i do y his mum mus msg me??i dun understand lik as if i'm .... i dun noe how to phrase..
yar dun worry dont worry his g.f mus b super happy tt i left him
how much haf it affected me?
u do not noe..i really think he shld jus go back to his *458 lol..
who caress..
it brought me a change--i dont think u will know as.......

sighhss

not talking to him anymore we're not friends anymore.. the world jus doesnt lik me wht the i jus hate it..why why why i mus suffer i tot my life was good alr.. but now.. EVERYTHING jus comes up at a time.. this is horrible..o yar n arhghh nvm--
o i passed physic not tt good but failed chem cos toot toot Mr.Chan he marked everything wrongly..i got super happy for nth its lik thr's alot of mistake i think he did it whn he was supr super sleepy lol..funny yar got a math test tmr.. sigh dun noe wht i'm gna do lol..hope i noe how to do it its algebra!!by MR>SAMYY!!
love mr.samy so cute n FAT! with the moustache!!bushheyyy bushhheyyy
o ya on wed we dismiss sch early!! yea//cos of good results of the o'lvl tts a bit far right .. but we dismiss early whahaha at abt 11..yar anybody wanna date me.. lol.. j.k j.k but i'm alr taken lol..gna go out w darll..hee hope bestiess will forgive me i think they'll b going hme n study la.. lol.. so i'll go out w deanna but dun noe abt amanda think she gna play pool alone.. lol.. so poor thing lol.anyway yar they're lik gna watch tt scaaryy show 'infection'lol i'm super scared ltr i scream till ahhh lol.. funny!
anyway ya sigh super tired so going off now.. see ya
love!!