Insanity

When will I ever be able to get you out of my head.
I hate to fall in love. I bet you'll have heard this before; It takes a second to fall in love but its takes forever to get out of love.
If you've never heard of this before, I will be the first to tell you this.
I hate to love. Hate to keep thinking of you.
I need a distraction, a distraction away from you.
Bokc. There is no word in the dictionary can describe you; maybe there is but I just don't know what it is.
Arghhh.. My anger just need to be vent out. Every time when we're close and I try to close the gap between us, you'll just walk out on me. Why? When I ask to know you more, you said that's not the way and you just won't tell me. You just won't put in any other effort. What is it that you want. There's nothing more that I can do. nothing... nothing... absolutely nothing...

DID I SAY`

I've received my stuff that I ordered online already!!! WHEEZERRSS~~~
My Tee that says :' love is to have matching tattoos' and my pretty pretty BAG!
OH AHH..... COOLNESSS
As for the other 4 tees.. I ain't sure.. Its sure a VERY long wait.. and I'm waiting impaitiently.. CRAPPOO! and I think I'm getting angry!!! I demand for my shirts!!!

Tomorrow's moi momma's bird-day and I don't know what I should get for her. Bro has the cash and all so he's like the one that's always treating dinner!!!! By treating us to dinner, all the time, he doesn't have to think so hard like how I'm thinking now. I asked mom what she wants/DEMANDS!!!(haha) This year's answer is anything.. WTH this is like making my life difficult! At least last year she gave some hints and all haha..(I can't remember what I bought;but I know she sure did cut a hole in my pockets[: ) OH MY!! and rah rah is not free tomorrow. CRAPOOO. Maybe a blouse, a bottom? skin care products? handbag? shoes? accessories? ... I DONT KNOW!!! I SURE WISH I CAN GIVE/BUY HER A TATTOO... haha but thats like CRAsYness. .. ...

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

'kor-kor' is FINALLY getting M.A.R.R.I.E.D! oH My 'tian' ! Thats like ubber duperr swift! Isn't it so exciting. And my 'girlfriends' get to come!! They're invited!!! haha. FUN-ness. I've been like talking ALL about it and now finally the day is coming its arriving!! Bro and Sis-In-Law is like ubber blubber busy right now and stuff.. SWEET! I just can't wait. I've been eating A LOT and I don't know if I can still fit into my gown/my dress? ARGHH.... diet? nahhh.. don't know.

Whenever I'm about to sleep and I can't sleep. Insomia, comes in my mind. Then I will think of you. But I realise that whenever I'm unable to sleep when I'm exhausted is because my mind is occupied with and tons and thousands of things about you. My mind and brains are thinking a lot about you and I. How I wish that whatever I see in my head;I will be able to see it in reality. This is so I can tell tell myself that dreams can be reality, dreams is reality. However, I must listen to the fact that dreams will always be dreams and therefore it will never turn into reality. Am I dreaming right now?
p.s iloveyou. <3

I'll tell you what/how you're feeling

I guess its simple. If I'm easy to understand, I can tell you in just a sentence.
You and I are just feeling the same way;we just need someone to love and care for us.