LETS BLOG!-tab says to UPDATE!!!

but I'm lazy
): haha ;p

How can I wish that I can look into your eyes and you will kiss me on my forehead, saying: "I love you."But for what I know love is a very hard thing to express. What more is it for me to ask you say it.

senior's crib

OMG!! Meeting up with senior(Alex) today was a BLAST!
O MY 'tian' !!!! Alex lost freaking A LOT of weight!!! She's bloody HOT now! haha.
With all the catching up we did and all the stories she tell us=coolness.
Spending 3 hours talking to each other, definitely was enjoyable and fun.
Although we spent our time just at her place, hanging and chillin'.
We actually planned to play pool, watch moo-v and just hang at her crib.
But eventually we just spent our time listening to her love story;that is so SO exciting and like a film/moo-v(which is about the same).
Anyway her newly renovated crib is like effing pretty and nice-ness. That is sort of like a Chang Mai, Bangkok feel. With Buddha portraits all over and the ambiance is just lovely. AWESOME!
Her bedroom is like super cosy and feels super homey. With her daybed, night bed, lantern lighting, statues, pillowcases and GOLDFISH(stupid-boy) just gives a warmth feeling.
I ADORE 'CHANG' THE MONKAY. haha
Her toilet now, is ubber dupper coolios! You'll feel like you've stepped into a hotel's toilet in Bangkok. The bath area is not a tub but a 'hole' haha its just TOTAL coolness and the shower is like rain tap. Real COOLNESS shit.
Dined at her place as well. Food is always yummy there haha. Great dad cook. haha. Although its just chicken, tofu and cabbage. I LOVE em' ALL! haha. I LOVED the CABBAGE with chinese bacon. Total YUMMYLICIOUS! Sure did grow fat! With jap. jelly and mini conetto.
Didnt had a chance to play pool! But the talking was sure FUN.
LOVE SENIOR!

I sat in a Nokia Music bus today!!

hahhahahha. The bus is freaking effing COOLness. haha It like a bar in a bus. The seats look like prestigious sofas/couches. And the handrails are like oh my 'tian' haha. coolness~~

I studied the again today. This time at Macdonald's, Kovan. As I had cell at Kovan. So its more convienient for bessa and I. Did almost all my work except for chinese and english tuition summaries. haha. I just do not like to do english summaries. Shawn, Bay, Chloe, Sarah, Van and I were all studying together. It was rather fun, although Shawn is like retarded most of the time. (haha.he'll kill me and start calling me gangster again after he read this) Met F.k and Jasmine to go to Ryan's place for CG. We walked over! haha. FUNness. We had 'Yu Sheng' and the cell actually has quite fun people. After cell went back to Kovan to meet Rah to get back my TYS. When I wanted to leave early, they said that I 'pang-seh' them again! CRAPOES!!! arghhh
those smokaholics-

He's found new love

Credits To: The Prawn.
haha. Prawn didn't want credits but I'll eeee-ritate and embarrass The Prawn.
ANONYMOUS PRAWN (lols)

Today was like chinese all the way. Chinese New Year is not over that is why. 'Lao shi' is like drowning us in cheena work. And we've been reading a lot of articles!!!! Had Chinese R.T today. After chinese R.T, Deanna and I rushed down to Hougang for chinese tuition! Chinese here there and everywhere else. I guess I'll go back and stick with my old saying, "Born chinese learn chinese."
(When will I ever learn?)

His new love is not anonymous. I wonder if its true. Signs make me believe that there's a new girl, oh! Now it only matters if I believe in the unsupported source. What am I to do or to say. I guess I'll just have to overcome this fact that you and I just don't love no more. The chemistry have evapourated, its gone. What has become the two of us;what is wrong? For what I know that I will make it true. Its that the friendship between us will never go, but will grow. Many times I've said that you didn't believe that its true. I tell you once again, I love you so.

NOTE:

SMOKING IS NOT AN ADDICTION;ITS A HABIT.
This is what my friend told me and I thought about it. Its quite true.
There's NO such thing as withdrawal syndromes if you don't smoke for days. TRUST ME. So to quit smoking, it all depends on your will. As it is a BAD HABIT and not an addiction. Do not think of cigarettes and just live life day by day and it will pass you by. I believe you can DO IT to escape from those sticks. ITS ALL IN THE MIND that it relieves stress. You are just psyching yourself. Psyching yourself is not going to help relief everything that is in your mind.

Protege

Mr. & Mrs. Chang(:

• went to rahs house
• went to bay's house
• went home
• dinner at home
• went to marina
• watched Protege with cousins and aunts
• wanted to go to The Clinic
• But it was too crowded
• and they didn't have seats for 12 outside
• and they have unwillingness in them to serve (don't know why they're employed)
• so we went to Forbidden City, Indochine
• I drank butterfly effect. (does it remind you of Aston Kutcher?) lols (nope no the pic above;before I can take a pic I finished it haha)
• Then there's this cold room
• so they were curious.
• jocelyn gu jie asked. and they say to go in and check it out must at least drink
• and they serve Vodka Shots inside
• omg!!! gu jie, bro, jeremy and keith went in.
• a Vodka Shot is $15 per shot
• gu jie got HIGH after they came out.
• according to them the room is SUPER DUPER COLD(haha wait for the pics from my cous)
• my aunt got SUPER high and she talked funny!
• then we went down to Goodwood Park to eat taiwan porridge. lols
• 10 of us squeezed into the car.
• the three guys (jeremy, bro and keith) at the back
• and five girls(janell, cindy gu jie, cheryl, jermaine and I) in the middle
• and candy jie driving with jocelyn gu jie, high, next to her.
• ATE A LOT!!!!!
• head home.
  
  

DILLIGAF: yes I DO!

my aunt sucks she thinks that her daughter is so so so LEGAL to do anything she wants cause she's fucking 18 and she thinks that I can't make it to be 18. They just remember me and not anyone else when my other male cousin is the SAME age!! WTF!!! its like he's a guy and he SO SO SO doesn't look like 18 and they say that he looks like 18 and I don't. WTF! Then I was like NO!!! I do look older than my age and I feel like I'm SUPER DUPER OLD!!!. I can not look my age, in an older way not younger. CRAP SHIT BITCH! She just doesn't know what I do outside of the house that no one knows. She can just go look at her own daughter, the most innocent. Even her facade view is like INNOCENT!!! shit and now she's 18 then she's not afraid to do what she's not allowed too before. I club before I turn 18 I've bee en to ABOVE 18 clubs before!!!! have she?? NO all she goes is pubs. Cause she doesnt know how to club! I'm SO SO SO ANGRY with that particular AUNT!

GONG XI FA CAI!!!

HAPPY CNY TO Y'LL
(collect more ang paos and share the love with ... ahem... me ... hahha)

LOVE Y'LL!!!

when the mood is EMO; there will only be lyrics

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

WERNERS doesnt like me.
Although the German food there is GOOD and DELICIOUS.

RE-LA-TION-SHIP rocks/sucks

yesterday went to church for CNY service, replacing services on the eve and the 1st day of CNY. Pst Derek preached about relationship. It strucked me, and I agree with whatever he had preached and examples that he gave;somewhat and somehow true. I feel that I can actually relate to some of them. I really really am happy and glad that I went for service yesterday. It SURE WAS GREAT!! I really believe that when you're at the depth of your feelings(sad) all the more you should go to God and not run away from Him. OMG I sound so religious. But who cares! I LOVE GOD and He loves me & YOU too!
Caught a ride from Erika's parents to Thompson's Bus Stop and dad picked me((: On the way, Erika's dad is SUPER DUPER cute and funny. hahahaha(ERIKA-I believe you're JAPO now.lols)

Hands that hold the heavens
Hold my heart tonight
Love pierce through my darkness
Glorious light
Words of life eternal
Heal my broken soul
To whom will I go
There's no one else but You alone

Jesus
Jesus
No other name
No one the same like You
The Truth, the Life, the Way
Jesus
Jesus
Glory and praise
Our voices we raise to You
The soon and coming king

You are the Christ Son of the Living God
The Great I Am
I'll follow You till the end

Do you believe in Valentine's Day? -its time to raise my white flag

HAPPY V-DAY !!! :HEART:
love is in the air and methane is the gas.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEENAAA!!!!!

Okay. I cannot deny that I disagree with Valentine's Day. Cause I use to be so excited about V-Day and I used to like go round town buying and making prezzies for my girls the day/week before V-Day. This year I guess I just couldn't care less. I THANK ALL in school that gave me prezzies and chocolates. I'm so SORRY I didn't get you people anything. LOVE! I guess now I don't really believe in V-Day. I don't know why, I guess this has got nothing to do with being older. May be the excitement is just not there anymore. I feel that this year everybody is getting excited and doing things that I am not interested in this year. WHATS UP WITH ME? (I want to go get another tattoo!) For example, the girls all want to go and participate in sports day(we don't even attend every year), I spoilt my record last year cause of Sayuri Poh! She made me go. I don't want to go this year and ALL want to! I thought of another thing just now but I think my memory is just failing;I can't remember.

Today, Valentine's Day is just like any other normal day to me. Everybody receiving flowers and gifts..blah.. Okay I received chocolates and some gifts too. But not as much as the other times. To admit how jealous I am when I see the others having pretty stalks of flowers even the 'unpopular' gets flowers!! To also see all the other girls carrying flowers on their way back from school and I nothing, not even a stalk in my hand to bring home this year but ALL the food in my bag. ): FATTS! But mommy loves me she cooked for me goodies((: I "laugh" MOMMY!

EVEN MY PARENTS !! They were in the mood of VALENTINE's this particular year! Dad bought a PHONE for momma. DARN! He was super duper cute and 'sweet' haha. He's my dad! So I shan't embarrass him on my blog which he will never read!! and know!!
[my parents business is for me to know and for the curious cats to find out. (; ]

Just came back from IKEA(Tampines). Bought stuffs funness.
A table specially for my GOLDFISH! haha.
and BRIGHT neon shower curtains;coolness.
Ate FATs! like MEATBALLS, CHICKEN WING, HOT DOG and ICE-CREAM.
Maybe its just a sign of relieving depression. ~whatever

P.S;I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU

AWAITING G.C'S NEW ALBUM TO BE RELEASE!!
Who will get it for me this time. Thanks J**F for the surprise the last time! I still have the box;)

DAD asked: "you went to Ministry of Sound again?" (jokingly)

FRIDAY, 090207
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEXXxxXY! BIG FAT 17!!!

HAPPY bird-DAY to benj. (: LEGAL 18!!!

The day that the O'lvl results have been released.

It totally did not affect me except when it comes to bess.

Girl, no worries k? I love YOU and think wisely about your choice k?

and except for my emotions. hah.

Rah

She wants to go CNY shopping. So I agreed. Coming over in a cabby to pick me up. This time we cabbed straight to town, FEP. Cool vintage shops!! FUN+ COOLness. I BOUGHT MY "TEENAGE MILLIONAIRE" trucker Cap. ((: *grins Walked to all VINTAGE shops only. We didn't buy much, cause rah wasn't really impulsive that day. LOL. (oh but later in TOPSHOP!) We poped into this shop that sells cool skinny JEANS. Nice-ness. Their jeans are like super duper cheap as well. Like 45 bucks only. Most of them are limited as well like one piece for each size. I saw this super nice nice one, that has this portionI at the butt there like a piece of cloth. So its rather unique. But the jeans is rather LOW, when I bend GROSS-you'll see my BUTT-c-r-a-c-k. So I decided that I should consider and and not be impulsive.

Van

She came late. But she still met us at FEP. It was coolness still cause we all drank Bubble Tea. HAHA. Then we all walked to Wisma Atria, Topshop. Its like Rah's FAVOURITE Boutique. Okay... ALL OF OUR FAVOURITE. We took the underpass from Tangs to Wisma. While walking out I met my cousin and her girlfriend(so pretty!-haha) She was rather weird though cause she swung out her plastic bag into my FAT face. Thank God! It didn't hit me, but it scared me. lol. When we reached we went to Basement, we wanted to go to F21 but we still had our drinks in our hands. So we roamed around the basement. Went to ALDO accersories, saw a cute hairband and thought it suited VAN and its on her shopping list now. ANYWAY, she was like my mannequin that day. FUN FUN FUN. She allowed me to dress her up! Tra-lalaLA. I'm actually quite good. teeheehee.

We spent a total of 3HOURS plus... in TOPSHOP!!!! We GOT undiessssss *grins and accessories. (:

to be continueddd......

blog blogged blogging blogger

I just feel like blogging one of those mundane stuff about my life. The common rants of blogs, being boring and plain cause its all about that particular person's life and what the person did on a particular day. But to have others reading shows that others are interested in your life and they would not mind reading about your 'life' story.
So here it goes....

lets start on Friday-020207
school was boring
van and I were playing games in the com. lab
Ms. Choo (geog. teacher) found out
we told her we dont want to research now.
So she asked us to go take out speech and do.
It was in class
We both went back and decided not to do
and started doing our class board (haha)
only when the bell rang then we went to the hall for assembly.
assembly made EVERYONE go into 'lala'land.
Had house meetings for election.
Fucking ass. as my house meeting is in the parade ground with NO shelter under the spicy sun
I had a good tan while waiting for the
childish, eeeeeeee-ritating, fucking juniors!
dumb asses that cant do simple jobs by introducing themselves.
stayed in school to finish my design for the board and I left at 3.
Went home, bathed and change and waited for Rah's signal (haha)
went to eat KOREAN FOOD at Hae Bok (jim's rest.)
GOOD GOOD YUM YUM
was actually with Jia Man, Jia Zhen, Shawn, Amanda, Sarah and Ji Min.
But Bay came late so Jia Man and Jia Zhen just take away KimChi and then they left
we enjoyed our food.
then went to Great World City
Had EYE-SCREAM! and YO!-gut
haha then went back to town; PlazaSing macs to chill
SHAWN AND BAY were DAMN FUNNY!!
THEY LOOK SO SO BLOODY CUTE TOGETHER!!!
like brothers and sisters haha.
choo-chooed HOME.

Saturday, 030207
I went for lunch with my momma at Bishan
as I went to collect the rest of my pay.
I treated mom to LUNCH. ((:
ate at secret recipe.
then at Delifrance Bistro
I was complacent with my time
So I didn't bother and just continued eating happily.
until it was 1, I was still at Bishan
and tuition was at Leedon Heights at 1:30
trained down to Toa Payoh(TP) to take 153
fucking bus was fucking slow and took so long to come.
1:30 I was still at TP
I was so late that I decided to take a cab
CABBED down it cost me 6 DOLLARS!
reached at 1:45 (sorry van and deanna)
went to church after tuition
TOOK A BUS TO BUGIS
the JAM was FUCK!
we got down the bus half way
and WALKED when we reached the MRT station the bus still at the same spot!
LATE again (sorry bay and erika)
service.
sat with 'new' cell E367/E365 (i cant rem)
saw EYE-CANDY!!
Pst. Ulf Ekman.
I like the new worship song
after service.
as usual, we did out GO OUTs
TCC again! the 5th time THIS YEAR! consecutively
haha. This time CHILLI BEEF SOUP.
Van was really lucky to pick PlazaSing as they had the soup of the day of
SWEET CORN!!! (yums!!)
chilled a little.
got a ride from Mr. Shimada (thanks! Uncle!)
was dropped off at Thompson
coincidentally, dad was at aunts place at ShunFu
and ... he called at the CORRECT time!! ((:
came to pick me.
sleep.

SUNDAY, 040207
sunday.
I stayed home all day doing projects
2 geog. and 1 english, CME
I spend 11hours in front of the lappy.
didnt watch Miami Ink
too tired.
slept

MONDAY, 050207
I literally can't remember.
Oh! School.
then test
then SERENE!!!!
STRAWBERRY SORBET @ island creamery((:
Honey Baked Ham
Roll-Ups
Herb Bread
whee~~ Left serene at about 5:30...6
THANK GOD Lornie Road haven't jam yet
alighted switched to 163
home.
Dad called exactly.
I didn't have to walk in the long and winding lane.
Mom and Dad and Bro went for dinner at 'Big Shanghai' haha (direct translation)
with Aunt Jenny, Uncle Richard, Sharon and Kelvin.
They're like old friends that have migrated over to aussie
and they're BACK! so mom and dad wants to have dinner.
I was suppose to go BUT I didn't want to.
It was a GOOD decision as I did all my homeworks
and I'm homework 'debt' free.
((:

the perfect ending

Taken in context
It's not a bad thing
But when you start to pick it apart
It gets so depressing
It's that sort of thing
That makes you think too much
It's that sort of thing
That makes you lose your objectivity

So, if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen
So, just keep moving on
There's no perfect endings

You peel back the layers
And get down to the inside
But sometimes you lose sight
Of what it was you were trying to find
And it's that sort of thing
That makes you think too much
It's that sort of thing
That makes you lose your objectivity

So, if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen
So, just keep moving on
There's no perfect endings
No perfect endings



stop the song that is already playing(at the side) first so that you can hear this clearly (remember to press play, the triangle sign!)haha.enjoy!(;

PHOTOS -finally (please say)

The stingray we were cheated of!
alex, alex, joyce
phanida, cass
jihyun(jims sis) and the english pastor. see they're standing so close and ji hyun was so afraid that he will step on her skirt she kept moving away. But the dumb dumb kept moving closer to her! -_-
Ji Hyun, Ji Min and
the cute Korean guy
she was S-E-X-Y
they were GOOD. look at her poise.
GAY






Joy's shy

I'lll continue blogging tomorrow!!!
later in the day.. hahha for now you'll read about my stupid dream.
<3

Another weird dream (haha:)

This time my dream was about a guy and I. haha. I cannot really see/remember how the guy looks like. haha. But apparently he's my boyfriend. And he's tall... haha. So I was out with him and some other friends of his. He was somehow a person that has many many friends and everyone somehow 'listens' to him (weird). And he's that kind of person that spoils me to the very end cause I'm "his" (haha). So he literally buys me anything and everything I want.

Then there's this thing that he just gave to me (just I think or like...whatsoever la), then we quarrelled on the way to somewhere while walking. So he demanded for the thing back and just snatched it from me and threw it away. Thinking that I'm not angry, I was actually pissed inside. I walked away from him and walked next to this girl(I don't know who!) and started walking to our destination(I dont know where). I know we were like in the heartland area(HDBs-I think). It was an unfamiliar place.

When we were reaching. I could not take it anymore that he didn't even realise that I'm angry at him and did not care about my emotions(JERK!). So I decided to walk away. Without telling anyone I just walked away. Somehow I like "ran" away as quick as possible so as to let home worry. As it was in the heartland area I ran pass like void decks and stuff and I climbed over the thingy where the elderly plays chess and talk cock. And I dropped something, it was a thing from him I did not bother to even pick it up. When I looked up, his friends were walking down the hill. {then it was another scene already}
WATCH OUT!!! this is getting stooopit. I will skip some parts(haha.)
The other scene we were now at this guy's place. I don't know why we were there. But I know that he's very angry with me and at that point of time it was only him, his best friend and I. He banged hard on the door of the house we're in front of and just swing open the unlocked gate. They barged in. He sat at the side and slept while his friend went to beat the guy, that is living in the flat(RIDICULOUS). I just stood there and watch. I could not do anything. I realised that he was actually jealous that was why he was angry with me and not happy with that guy. haha. SO CUTE right? (but dumb!) When his best friend stopped. I walked towards him and shook him awake. Saying something like, 'baby, are you still angry with me. why?' He did not reply me and shut his eyes again. Again I went, 'baby, are you jealous? don't be angry.'
(smth like that HAHA so embarrassing to blog about this!!)
So.... ... blah blah blah blah... (only van knows hahahaha) THEN! He went, 'baby, don't call me that and don't be like this towards me, I don't want to do anything to you.'
(and he kissed me on my forehead) and thats all... {then it was back to the previous}

I was at a void deck and ALL his friends were all splitting up to look for me. But I don't know why he's the one that found me. He found the thing that I lost(before that remember??). He gave it back to me and said sorry and hugged me.


HAHA> STUPID RIGHT??????
don't laugh OGAY?
hee hee. lOVE!